NERDY

Lazy bum.

2012-03-03T22:20:00.002+08:00

look at the kittehh!

look at the cola limee!

look at the snacks.

yes, i am so lazy to blog so i post up pictures to make me not lazy. PROBLEM?

Long time no see.

2012-02-20T21:44:00.001+08:00

hello there y'guys! been a while huh? god, i'm sorry for not blogging. i've been really busy! you have no idea how tiring it is! or maybe you do.

hmm. yeah. i feel awkward blogging now since it's been a while i did.

school is just.. horrible. everyday.. EVERYDAY you get homeworks and having teachers to say all those shit about "Getting A*". what the hell. i know they want us to pass but pushing our abilities beyond our limitations isn't going to get us anywhere. trust me.

my maths teacher, Mrs. Latha, gave us homework after every class we had with her. one exercise a day. think about it. my time is really limited. i go to school in the morning, stayed there until 4 then go home. when i reached home, i have to do some house work then go to tuition afterwards. who wouldn't be tired after all that?

all this "school" is making me really tired. before going to school, i SLEPT in the toilet while taking a shower. desperate for a good sleep. haha. this is crazy.

of course, i can't blame school all the time right? i am partly at fault here. see, i have been "addicted" to anime. that doesn't mean i'll watch for the entire night and go to school without any sleep but i can't sleep if i don't at least watch two episodes of anime. it sucks. i'm also craving for those figurines. HAHA. OTAKU. OTAKU. but seriously, i want those figurines.

talking about animes.. do you know how many animes do i wanna watch now? omg. thinking about it makes me tingle inside! let's see.. i wanna Code Geass, Rave Master, Naruto (i've watched it until episode 40 and stopped because streaming online was so.. ugh.), Bleach, Ranma 1/2, Jigoku Shouju and etc. I ESPECIALLY WANNA WATCH JIGOKU SHOUJU! a little girl killing people at night because of requests posted online? oh yeahhhhh.

next week.. my birthday is next week. no, i still do not want any party, gathering, presents or any greetings at all. well, both BIGBANG and UKISS are releasing their albums on that date.. can i scream my lungs out? OMG. ON MY BIRTHDAY. THEY. ARE. RELEASING. THEIR. ALBUMS! -fangirl scream- i mean, i should be lucky! both of my favourite boy bands are releasing their album on that date! it's gonna be the best birthday present ever! things like this doesn't happen often. 2012 is awesome. yes, it is.

here's some videos before i end my post. they're currently my favourite songs!

EXO-K - What is Love

BIGBANG - Blue

UKISS - A Shared Dream

i'll blog next time!

ROYCE DARK CHOCOLATE IS...

2012-02-13T21:46:00.004+08:00

DA BOMB!

(my mum drew on it before i took a picture.)

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2012-02-11T16:57:00.002+08:00

hello there y'guys! ahah. yes, i haven't blogged in a while now. man, do i always start my blog post like this..? 'cause it feels like i do start it like that EVERYTIME.

anyways, see the title? well, it's not for me. not for my parents either. it's for a FRIEND!

which friend? well, let's just say he's the awesome-est friend i have in my life! my childhood friend, my best friend and y'know what? we'll forever be like that!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIP YI!

(and no, i do not have your picture this time so no worries.)

and ya know, it's a big deal okay. since it's your birthday! hahah! if you were here, i help you celebrate one! not just me, everyone will! and why wouldn't we? your existence means a lot to us!

all i wanted to say was, thanks a lot for being my friend all the way back from Primary 2 till now. yeah, we been through ups and down when we were younger but it all worked out in the end, right? (yeah, Nick's the one who tried to make us become friends again. lol.) i can't believe that our friendship maintained well until now. yeah, you might be in Perth and i might be in Brunei and that's what, 6 hours apart by plane but that ain't ruining our friendship, yeah?

you're a nice guy. very kind guy, in fact and is always fun to be with. haha. speaking from the heart, bro. sure, we do share some common thing.. (crazy father, taste in music(?)), probably. i'm very happy to say that, i'm glad that i've met you. gosh, how crazy it would've been if we didn't knew each other.

oh yeah. be sure to be confident about yourself! in your studies and yourself! and of course, be happy always! hahah. some people might say some shit about you (i'm not sure about that, i don't think so.), but you just gotta hold your head up high and be like Luan. fuck it. they don't mean a thing.

also, be true to yourself man. i've learn that just.. recently? so what if people tease you just because you watch Glee? so what if (insert things that happened to you before)? screw them. fuck them. you're you and you can't change that right? yeah.

yup, guess that's all. i know it's pretty late but i hope you read this before your birthday. i hope you enjoyed your day. repeat. YOUR day. haha. sorry i couldn't fly over there to spend it with you. i wish i could. HAHA. then we would do crazy stuffs.. like prank call a random number. HAHAHA. just kidding. not really.

btw, you better give me your address so i can send you something next year. >:( hahah!

I just melted away.

2012-02-02T21:31:00.002+08:00

I love you, mummy!

2012-01-28T22:22:00.003+08:00

hello guys! i'm not gonna say much as it's already 11 pm. i need to watch my FairyTail. i know i haven't been blogging in a while! had something big happened to my family. i would rather not say anything at all. i don't want to be remember or rather, it's already embedded into my heart.

today is the sixth day of Chinese New Year. i'm restricted to go for house visiting as well.. i'm restricted. even so, i'm happy and i can manage. i know it's my last year here (most probably..) and i really wanted to cherish every opportunity given to me to hang with my friends but.. for this very occasion, i wouldn't.

today, my mother decided we all went out for dinner at Fratini's. of course, it's going to be hella expensive! but before the food starts serving, my mother gave me a small cake and a large box at that. i was stunned, of course. i didn't know what my mother was planning. i carefully tear out the wrapped paper and oh god, it was a LOT of paper. one wrapped inside another. when i finally get to the box, i lift up the box lid and find shreds or colourful paper inside! suprise, suprise. i had to take all those papers out and next thing i found is a another tiny box.

it was wrapped in pink with white leafs imprinted on the paper. i slowly tear open the paper and when i finally finished, guess what i found?

A SAMSUNG GALAXY ACE!

i was dumfounded. my mother knew i was saving up for a new phone. she heard. i was kinda bringing it up everytime but i swore i was saving it up on MY OWN. i never expected my mother to buy me one! i'm really, really happy okay! i may not be able to express it in words but i.. well, what more could i say? I LOVE MY MOTHER!

always and will! i mean, come on. if i can't love my mother, who else should i love? my dad? lol. see what i did there?

anyways i have to end my post here as of now. i'm feeling a lil' sleepy so yeah.

I LOVE YOU MOMMY! ALWAYS AND FOREVER WILL. i'll be the greatest daughter! i won't disappoint you! (or maybe just a little..)

2012-01-17T16:24:00.000+08:00

I miss these..

2012-01-15T18:00:00.003+08:00

Stress = lust for food?

2012-01-13T14:38:00.002+08:00

hello guys. been a while, no? yups, been busy for school. man, i never knew being in Form 5 is gonna be THIS hard. i knew it was hard but not this hard. seriously, it's only the second week of school and i feel like crap already. how wonderful.

homeworks, assignments, tests. they're all coming at us. gosh. this is really pressuring me and i was never the kind of person that can handle being pressured. it makes me go outta control. can you believe it? homeworks were given to us and we HAVE to complete no matter what. first, teacher is gonna check. second, doing homework is kinda a necessity now? whatever the reason is, i have to adapt to these things from now on. no more slacking. no more fun and games. it's all serious bro.

feeling the stress, it's also making me more hungry. i can be really hungry at times.. especially during midnight which sucks 'cause i can't sneak into the kitchen without waking up my parents. food, food, food. all i can think about now is food. this ain't a good sign at all.

i actually just came back from Miri not long ago and i'm fucking tired. it wasn't as fun as i thought it would be..? maybe it's partly because my dad was tagging along also. not to mention, he is having PMS these few weeks. why can't he just lighten up a bit anyway?

guess i should stop here. i need more sleep than ever. like waaaay more. been yawning in class the whole day and i couldn't even concentrate properly! thanks to 5-7 hours of sleep everyday. but some people get 3-4 hours of sleep everyday and they still feel energetic! how i envy them.

well, guess that's that. good night then!

It's a new year.

2012-01-02T19:51:00.002+08:00

hello y'guys! well, it's 2012. y'know what they say about 2012? it's the end of the world! if you believe that shit, then well, you're a believer. i can't say nothing else. me? i partly believe in those things. don't ask me why. i just do. guess i'm a belieber too? HAHAHA.

it's a new start. we have that every year.. but hell, it's a new start! new shoes, new shirts, new clothes.. err scratch that. i mean, like new goals and new resolutions. things you wanna accomplish. and maybe even a new you. to change you're whole personality if you didn't liked your current one.

man, time just pass by so damn fast. the time when we were just taking our PSR seems like it was only yesterday. when we were so crazy back then. now it's my time to be facing the biggest exam of my life. the GCE O'levels exam. the thought about it makes me scared and it's only the starting of year!

my resolutions? i guess.. it's the same old same old? like everyone else, i want to improve more on my studies. it's very, very important that i pay extra attention in class but with my habit of sleeping late and not doing my work will probably drag me down a lil' bit.. or maybe a lot?

school only started today. feels like Form 4 all over again. how i wish i could turn back time and remain there for a little longer. i don't want to be separated with my friends THAT fast. i mean, come on. 2011 just passe by like lightning and we expect 2012 to pass by any slower?

hope you guys can accomplish more this year! like most of you, i'm gonna try my best and hardest to achieve my goals. of course, i wouldn't let emotional stuff get to me (not at much i hope..). it's my last year in Brunei and i sure do want to cherish every moment of it.

2012, be ready. i'm gonna live this year like it's nothing and no, i'm not gonna let life drag me down any longer! positive thinking voon. positive thinking. yeah, i'm ready. BRING IT AT ME.

Part 1: Empire!

2011-12-30T01:56:00.007+08:00

hello guys. it's 2am in the morning and i have nothing to do. is waiting for my brother though. he's kinda busy but after he's done, we'll be playing Mario Party! HAHA. yeah, we're insane. anyways, let's journey down to the 11th!

on the 11th Dec, Yik Ke invited us to Empire as a sort of farewell party for her. well, i gotta tell ya this. IT'S FUCKING AWESOME. and before i continue blogging I DID NOT TAKE ANY PICTURES AT ALL. it's sad but for me, i rather experience it than taking pictures remembering it. not only that, me + camera is a no go. i just can't hold him. i mean, i can but i'm not used to taking pictures around wherever i go. it's troublesome (for me).

Abby, Yvonne and Nick followed my car to Empire. i thought it was gonna be awkward as my brother is the one driving us up there. plus, one of his friends is following us too so you can pretty much imagine the awkwardness it will be. it's all thanks to my brother and his friend that everything went so well during the trip there.

we were the first one to arrive. it's too early but we were so excited when we only just saw the entrance! hahah! who wouldn't?! it's like the grand-est hotel in Brunei. not to mention the most expensive too.. as time passes, more of my friends came, each car by each car. it was nice to see all of my old buddies again. only then i realized how i've missed them.

arrival of Yik Ke? she's the last to arrive. it's like a ball or something. all the guests arrive first, the host makes her grand entrance. HAHA. i'm thinking too much. i was really, really happy when i got to see her! it's been like what, months? and i can't believe i let out big tears when i saw her. embarrassing? yup but i couldn't resist.

we all checked-in to the villa. it's more like one of Sultan's tiny getaway than a villa. you cannot imagine how grand it is! everything is so neat and clean and words can't describe it. well, it can but my vocabulary sucks so deal with it. all i remember from the room is golden. golden colour everywhere.

we ate lunch then headed out to the pool! played the whole afternoon there. had some complication at first but Ke's dad cleared it all out. kinda feel bad 'cause Ke's dad had to pay all the money just for us to have fun. :( imagine how much money he would spend! imagine those money coming out of your savings.

night time, we ate dinner at the main building. ho ho ho. delicious. food. everywhere! me at that moment? full of drools. the main courses were quite good! not what i expected to be. really delightful! but it's not the main courses that caught me that night. it's the DESERTS! cakes! cakes! cakes! all i ate was cakes (and a lil' tad bit of the main course)! very, very satisfied with all the sweets!

after that we all went bowling. it's my first time and i suck at it. yup. but it was pretty fun!

after bowling, we all head back to "Sultan's small getaway" to prepare for sleep. but heh, some of us bad keeds aren't sleepy yet so we went out to watch Breaking Dawn: Part 1. Vivian, Yin Jia, Chiew Yen, Guang Yi and me. the five of us only! watching the last movie of the day. will tell you about the movie in another post.

after the movie, 5 of us went back to the villa. wondering if all of them were sleeping but only to find out they were still as active! all squeezing up in one group chatting. tsk. tsk. over-excited. it was around that time when all of us felt tired and wanted to sleep it off but know what? all of us couldn't sleep. we were all awake the whole night and we didn't even know it!

next morning: NO ENERGY AT ALL OKAY. like dead people but no no, the excitement isn't stopping us at all! we're still ACTIVE but in a sleepy way. we all had breakfast at the villa then headed out for sports. some of us went shopping and others went to the movies. most of them went for sports.

skip. skip. skip. it's a long type. (not that important also).

oh by the way, there's one restaurant near the swimming pools. where they it's opened air with roof. good place for a sleep, i shall say but not a place for eating. the food is not really that good. no offense but i think that restaurant isn't up to the standards.

more skipping.

it was time to say goodbye. yup. end of the fun. it was kinda heart wrenching. having to be separated again after a met up. 2 days seemed like 2 minutes. time just passed by like it's nothing. we wished we could stay there forever, all of us together, like a family. we all had group photos.

yes, i look horrible in these pictures but i love it x1000000.

guess we all have to cherish our friends before they all leave us behind.

picture credits to: Cheng Huey

Friends?

2011-12-27T22:52:00.002+08:00

hey guys. yeah, i know i said that i'll update you guys on what happened few weeks back but heck, i'm not in the mood right now 'cause of MANY things. trust me, if you're in my shoes you'll go crazy. i mean it.

i'm not sure if i'm paranoid or what but sometimes i feel that my friends, regardless of whether they're close or not, seems to hate my guts. if not hate then maybe avoiding me? i don't know. but i do feel that my friendship with others are getting worse by the minute.

maybe the cause of this? i assume it was because of that one time... yeah, might be it. guess i was too aggressive that time.

another assumption may be it's because i always reject an invitation to people's hangout. most of them. god, i couldn't even count how much i had rejected. i mean, i want to go! but y'know, there are always some things that i don't need to tell them, right? y'guys wanna know the real reason why i reject each hangout without having second thoughts? (i can say it freely here, it's not like they'll read it.)

it's 'cause of my parents. i know y'guys are gonna be like, "what? waddaya mean parents? my parents let me out all the time and you're just making excuses to skip the hangout." it's not like that. let me tell y'guys this. my parents are way, way, WAY different than normal parents. i'm like a little bird and they're my cage. i'm not allowed to do anything i like freely. i mean, my parents are nice but in their mind, i'm their property and i have no freedom unless i get married off to another family.

sureeeee, they let me out once in a while. sure, they'll let me have fun for one day. but once they get angry at me, they'll use this one particular day when i'm out and say i "ALWAY" go out. ALWAYS. -pfft- when's always? WHEN?!

yeah, this is why i always reject on the first time they asked.

even though i am stating that it's my fault that my friends are practically moving away from me, some things are not entirely my fault too. i have friend(s) that say they "trust" me the most, find me the "nicest" of all of her/his friends and they would always cherish the friendship that we had. always and will. bullshit. what kind of crap did he/she put up there?!

i've noticed this friend of mine, he/she always tells me their problems, always be there for her/him and me, being their anger absorber. me, ME?! okay, i will. i don't mind. but you know what they do? ALWAYS? they left me in dust. gave me the feeling like, "oh, i've no use for her anymore. let's just ignore her then." do you guys know how that feel? that feels horrible. so USED. one problem after another, they come and go. what is this? you make me feel like garbage. what am i, you're rubbish bin? where you dump all your sad little fucking detail of your life into me? well, congratulations. i no longer give a fuck.

okay, i actually don't mind being dumped by all this useless information(?) but at least.. be there for me when i need you. when i need a friend. you know what they always do? they fled. THEY FLED FROM THE FUCKING CONVERSATION. i never get the chance to express all that grief and sorrow. you may say, "heck, don't blame it on us. you've never say anything." well biatch, i did and know what? i tried to approach you with my problems once, twice, thrice and i gave up. sorry.

if ya'll are implying that i'm talking about ALL my friends. it's not all of them. i'm just stating the ones that really makes me feel so bad.

and if we're childhood friends who fucking swore we'll always be friends. screw that. none of that is true. i had childhood friends, they don't find me when i make an effort to find them before and eventually, i gave up trying. i guess.. this is why i sound cold on social networks? and makes no one wants to find me. yeah, i do notice that i don't really reply people when they find me up for chat or rather i find them. guess i'm really used to being ignored that i'm doing the same thing. horrible beyond words.

friends? what are they? your support? your lifesaver? your unrelated sister? well, if they were i wouldn't lost trust. i wouldn't had gave up on friendship. advice? trust no one. not even me. not even your best friend for god's sake.'cause you'll never know what happens. all you can do is trust yourself.

and i know, once i've post this up maybe in a few years i'm gonna say friends are the best shit ever. yeah, i cool liddat but yeah, this is what i feel now about my current friends.

end of this post. sorry for being a downer. i have to, i'm a part-timer. guess i'll see y'guys next time? bye.

Before i sleep..

2011-12-23T22:30:00.002+08:00

i just wanna say this and i have to say this 'cause it's been a while...

JUNEX, BABE. YOU GOTTA KNOW I FUCKING MISS YOU ALRIGHT? DON'T YOU DARE THINK I FUCKING FORGET ABOUT YOU.

and yup, i hope you read this. 'cause if you didn't, then i fail as a fucking friend.

Apologies

2011-12-23T22:14:00.003+08:00

hey people. some of you guys know, i'm back from Kuala Lumpur just 2 days ago and i did tweet that i will actually have 2 blog posts out that night but turns out it didn't.

the trip back from KL was truly tiring. hmm, the whole trip was tiring. i didn't have enough sleep, that's first. second, i have played under the rain for quite a bit thinking i'm still young and stuff that i won't catch a cold. third, being nag isn't a good thing. waste of emotional energy.

reasons for not putting up posts? well, the first night i came home, i had a huge headache and my left eye sort of hurts. hurts like fucking hell. i had no choice but to rest it out. second night, the same thing happens again despite the fact that i've rest a lot. gosh, it was suffocating. so yup, second night, no blog post. tonight? well, well, well. the rain bug caught up to me and yup, i have a cold. how fucking wonderful. i'm in no fucking condition to blog at all. all i can do is watch some dramas and sneeze away.

i sincerely apologize. for not blogging. i know i might upset some of my readers (if i have any) but i'll definitely blog when i feel better! promise, promise! now, i just need some rest. hope you don't mind. i'll retire to my bed now. good night all of you!

It's called, growing up.

2011-12-06T21:01:00.002+08:00

note: this post is not eligible for people who cannot handle sexual stuffs. i warned you first.

hello guys. i'm blogging again! oh my god, i'm so proud of myself for blogging this much. sob, cries. okay, that's just sad. why would i cry anyways? i just don't make any sense now.

so i've finally defeated the Elite Four on my Pokemon Emerald and captured Rayquaza, Kyogre and Groudon! HAHA FUCK YEAH TO THAT! but the sad thing is, my save file has been corrupted and erased from my files.. permanently. now, there's a reason to cry now. resuming crying.. and stop.

since it's been erased (did i mention i've been cursing all day that day when i found out? .. guess not), i'm going to not waste my time and play Pokemon Leafgreen. fuck, to think i wasted 4-5 hours of my life capturing those three fucking pokemons.

okay, so what's my title about? do you have some friends that ALWAYS says "ewwwww" whenever you accidentally flipped to the 'Reproduction' section of your Biology textbooks? i know i do. i find that ridiculously childish. i mean, they're topic you need to learn for the exams and possibly precautions for the future.

what's so bad about some vagina and penis on the textbook? are they real? can you make it erect? can you make vagina cum? no. then what's so disgusting about it? people who are learning to be a doctor needs to know these things. do they find it disgusting? nope. in fact, they're helping us. am i wrong?

it's not like, when you see the pictures you'll eventually get an erection or an orgasm. i mean, what? how? dude, it's either there's something wrong with your dick or you're sick in the head. if it was me, i face it normally. it's just a fucking textbook. it ain't a porno mag.

you know what's weird? those people who sees me flipping across the 'Reproduction' section, calls me fucking perverted. DUDE, at least i don't watch porn and masturbate over them like you do. man, i just fucking own you. at least reading through them makes me realize that i should take extra precaution before i have sexual intercourse with any guy. unlike those videos you watch, they just make you wanna lose your virginity.

and you must be thinking, "i thought you watch porn too?" well, i do but i don't fucking feel a thing 'cause i think it's normal you know? when we grow up, we're going to experience it too but of course to the sense that we only do it with the person we ACTUALLY want to be with the rest of our lives and not a one night stand.

i know these thing, it's more like, i'm used to it. i don't even care if you masturbate. guy or girl. it's only natural. even though to some people, that's sick but if that's what your inner desires tells you to, then do it. you can't prevent yourself from it. just do what you want. don't let your parents know though or you're gonna be killed. slowly. painfully.

the only time when i get disgusted at these things is when i found out that people around my age lost their virginity. i mean, that is not natural at all. your body isn't even fully matured and here you are getting fucked over and possibly spoiling your body and getting pregnant. this is what i always hear, these people fucked and they bragged about it. what's to brag? that your vagina is open 24/7? that you're a slut? well girl, you ain't gonna get a bright future i tell ya that.

i might have off-tracked this topic a little but you get what i mean. don't let out childish remarks when you see something like this. like, 'ewwwwwwwwwww!' or 'i'm gonna tell your mum you're watching porn!'. come on, what the hell? it's not like my parents care. you might make these remarks now but i can assure you, you're going to enjoy these things sooner or later. not now, maybe when you're 27.

if you can't control your desires, feed it with hentai. not porn, i don't recommend. hentai, as it's only animated and stuff. that's what i do and look at me. do i want to have sexual intercourse with just anybody? no. do i want to have sex before marriage? no. 'cause i know the consequences. you should too.

i hope you guys learn your lessons. well, not really. just a piece of advise i guess? and how much i dislike kiddish things like those.

i won't be blogging for a while i guess. i'm gonna be pretty busy for a while starting now. i'll blog before i go to KL too. promise? promise. so i'll see you guys next time!

Tick Tack

2011-12-05T14:37:00.001+08:00

♥

Neverland, Swamp Man, Fever's End.

2011-12-02T22:00:00.004+08:00

helloooo guys. i know i've said that i might not blog when my brother's here? well, guess i can change that now. he's busy at the moment so i have some time to myself and i thought,"heck, why not blog?" and here i am.

when i was on a fucking long hiatus (if you recall. i think you do). i've been listening to albums. of course, my music journey will never stop. i'll keep continuing seeking for other types of music even during the exams. of course, if i was interested in the particular group. i don't really care if it's old or new songs. i just listen. fuck "what-that's-like-the-songs-from-ten-years-ago". i listen to wha i want.

so the first album is from U-KISS. i gotta say, i gotta give them loads of credit for making me addicted to this particular album for at least.. i don't know.. months already? they've got the power to capture my ears. no kidding. i mean, i loved every single song in this album! unlike others (except for BIG BANG's), i seem to like their album but there's always that one or two songs that you always skip when you listen to the album but it's entirely different when i listen to U-KISS's Neverland album.

EVERY. SINGLE. SONG. not skipped at all! it suits practically any events/activities. i can listen to it when i'm falling asleep as it's not all that noisy and loud. maybe like erm, BIG BANG's song. most of them are pretty lively. in other words, not suited for sleeping at all. even if you say, "BIG BANG have soft songs too!". yeah, that's true but in a complete 10+ songs album, i can say that BIG BANG's song is inappropriate to listen for falling asleep.

and no, for fuck's sake. i'm not bashing BIG BANG. if you read from the side info, i LOVE BIG BANG. i'm a big fan of them but apparently i don't live, breathe, eat BIG BANG. if i had credit cards, i would keep spending it on BIG BANG's albums, ORIGINAL, and buy all those goodies available for concerts only and doing fanchants with the BIG BANG torch at home. god, that would be AWESOME but no, i'm not a millionaire so i'm just gonna buy their albums only. original, of course, to support them.

anyways, back to U-KISS. from the first time i've heard Man Man Hani, i actually wanted to listen back to their old songs and probably fall in love with this group but due to reasons (was busy listening to others songs much more popular than Man Man Hani...), i couldn't. i regret for not listening to them when i first heard the Neverland album. it led me thinking, "if this album is so captivating, wouldn't the previous albums be too?" yeah, i regretted. and now, i'm downloading most of their albums. have yet to listen to them.

i rate this album, 10/10. no doubts. every song is nice. i've never been so crazy about other groups' album except for my favourites. one of my favourite albums of the year. so, a big clap for U-KISS for doing that. wish them all the best for promoting their new song, Tick Tack.

the next album is Swamp Man by High and Mighty Color. you might have heard of them from Bleach's opening, Ichirin no Hana. my interest doesn't really grow in them. although i do love their Ichirin no Hana... i didn't pay much attention to them after i've heard the song.

i guess i downloaded it was because the last few months, i've been reminiscing old songs and when i listened to Ichirin no Hana, it triggered me to download at least one of their album? yeah, that's it. you know what? i don't hate it! i mean, their intro song is already really nice! mysterious. i like that. i'm not sure how to describe it, even if the song have some visual kei-like shouts which is unusual for a rock, the girls voice just came in and makes everything better. like it's the perfect combination. man, i just can't describe it. guess you have to listen it on your own.

i give this album a 9/10. i may like it. fully. but it wasn't as addicting as Neverland. for me. but i can guarantee you this album, you won't regret those 40 minute and 54 seconds you're gonna spend on this album.

next album, next album. Fever's End. aaah yes. the pretty famous rapper in YG Entertainment now. i gotta say, i praise this guy for making me cry the first time i listen to his album. i don't know why. i just did. tears just start flowing out when i don't even know the actual meaning to the songs until i watched the commentary. it made me realize that he was an artist worth praising. worth supporting. the meanings behind those songs are.. speechless. you can tell he's actually been through a lot and he put all those emotions into his songs and that's very, very admirable about him.

in his 'Tomorrow' song, there's this sentence, "baby, there's no tomorrow till you come back. every day is yesterday." wow, that sentence stabbed me like a knife in the back. it made me think about my first crush, the longest and the most painful one. everyday of that 6 years, this sentence is my exact feelings. i tried living on but i'm so stuck on the previous day. gosh, thanks Tablo.

you can say this is the first rapper i've really respected. not because of their hit songs, 'Bad' and 'Tomorrow' but the meanings hidden behind those lyrics. i gotta give this album an 9/10 too. for me, rapping isn't really my thing but heck, Tablo just turned that around.

yup, this is pretty much all that i could blog about. i just wanted to share some thought of mine on some albums. probably make you fall in love with them like i did. of course, i'm not saying what i like/love, you should be forced to like them too. it all depends on one's interest, yes?

guess i'll stop here now! bye byeeeeee. i'll update next time!

I've become a nerd/geek?

2011-11-29T19:34:00.003+08:00

hello random people who reads my blog or maybe there isn't anymore who does. i'm finally back! from where? i'm not sure. but heck, welcome to my blog which is filled with random rants and reviews, boring stories of my life and maybe some anger issues.

if you like my blog, stay and enjoy. maybe grab a popcorn or even a lollipop or not 'cause you ain't watching a movie. if you hate it, and you want to screw my life, i welcome you too. if you hate it but you're one of those people who don't give a shit about me and kindly leave, i love you guys.

so random much? yeah, i don't know why i type all those. my fingers just keep tapping away.

so it's been quite a while now since my hiatus. it's because of my erm.. issues. well, guess what? i'm finally back to my happy bubbly self and the shocking thing is that.. i'm actually on my period! i thought people say that during "period" times, one gets super emotional and might break down or even get in a "sees-who-kills-who" mode. guess what? kiss that sucker's theory and i've proven him wrong! HAHAHA. nah, it's true. i'm only happy this way because of my brother. thanks bro, or else i might even cut myself.

where have i been? well, if you must know. i've turned into a total otaku once holiday starts. despite the fact that my mood was extremely bad, i still watch animes and read mangas. they cheer me up, mostly but it sucks 'cause even that can't cheer me up FULLY.

while i was away (from this poor blog of mine who have the bear with lazy ol' me), i've been watching Ouran High School Host Club, Baka to Test to Shokanju, Baka to Test to Shokanju Ni!, 07-ghost. soon, i'm gonna download Rurouni Kenshin and watch 'em all.

not only that, i've been playing Dynasty Warrior 7 and completed 2 stories, which are Wu and Wei. 2 more to go. i've also been playing Gundam Warriors 2 and almost completed it! HAHAHA. man, i'm a lifeless bitch. also been playing Pokemon Emerald on GBA emulator. i'm already done with the 8th gym leader. all i have to do now is finish the Victory Road, fight the Elite Four, catch the fucking hard legendary pokemon and i'm done! and guess what? i only started playing Pokemon like, what, 2-3 days ago?

and amidst of all that, i've been reading manga also. Sekaiichi Hatsukoi (yaoi), Ouran High School Host Club (just 'cause i'm not satisfied with the anime's ending). if you don't know what yaoi means, it means BL (Boys Love). in short, gay manga. if you're pretty offended by homosexuals, don't be a curious ass and search it up. it's pretty intense. HAHAHA. yes, i admit i do like homosexual people. problem?

so yeah, i've been a TOTAL geek. not doing anything else. i might even turn into one permanently.. i hope that's not possible. i do want a social life.. but anyways, being an "temporary" otaku is kinda cool. i don't have to deal with all the shits and drama's i deal with when i'm "socializing". so yeah, it's pretty much a big break from all that, and i love it. every. fucking. minute. of. it.

i apologize if i had used some inappropriate words in this post. it's just that since my brother come home, all these beautiful vocabulary just flies out of my mouth and i'm unable to control that.

by the way, when i say i LIKE homosexuals, i mean that i support them and you know, no hate. you know, i don't go against them and shit being all religious on them. it's only natural. yeah.. it is.

guess i'm stopping my post here. of course, i'm not able to guarantee if i am going to blog again SOON. i will, but i'm not sure if it's during the period when my brother's here. we've got so much to do. (aka, playing games)

oh right, i just got my report book back today and to my relieve, i've got a position. number 2! i'm extremely proud of myself actually. my mother's slightly upset that i didn't get first because of my A+ in A-maths but she's still happy. my brother's bringing me to Bandar tomorrow to watch a movie and grab lunch. have fun on our own. then you may ask, "why not watch in Seria? since there's a cinema there already." the thing is, it's not that enjoyable? i don't know how to fully explain it but yeah.

okay, i'm gonna stop my post here. i'll blog in a while. maybe 2 weeks? or maybe in a week, if you're lucky. so, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! leave a comment if you want.

2011-11-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

everything you said... is just BULLSHIT.

Lost in Deep Sea.

2011-11-17T15:01:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

yeah. blerg. so i promised to blogged frequently right? it seems that something is troubling me. i'm not sure how to describe it. apparently, it's either i lack of vocabulary or the world hasn't invent any words for the feelings i have now.

okay. first of all, i'm not having my PMS 'cause usually the only time i would degrade myself is when i'm having my PMS and ya'll know that, right? when girls have PMS, they get over-emotional and stuff. so yeah, final confirmation. i am not on my period.

these days have been.. horrible. insufferable. every minute of the day, it's becoming more and more suffocating? i don't know. i've been doubting myself over and over again. degrading myself. questioning my insecurities and such. i'm not sure what i am doing myself. to me, now the world seems like a dark, wide open space and i'm being sucked into it. deeper and deeper into it.

like i'm drowning in the ocean. instead of being suffocated by the lack of oxygen, i'm being suffocated by all my thoughts. it's like i'm sinking down into an ocean of doubts, regrets and sorrow.

being around my friends is the worst. in this state, i have to act like i have no care in the world. all happy and hyper and so.. carefree. whether it is expected or not, to my friends, i'm happy 24/7 regardless the situation i'm in. all smiles and random words just flew out of my mouth. i like being like that but not when my mood is below 0.

not only that, i get tear spasms now and then. for no particular reasons. tears just came out. my first reaction was, "why the fuck do i have tears coming out of my eyes?" but after a few more times, i just ignore it. but i keep wondering though. why? is it because of all the doubts i had, that's why i keep shedding tears? or is this "sensing something wrong?" i'm not sure either so.. yeah.

ahh. guess i'll stop right here. so yeah. i'm sorry if i couldn't update you guys much. really sorry.

Antis? What the fuck?

2011-11-13T16:00:00.002+08:00

hello guys! YES, I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED MY EXAMS! WOHOOOOO! freedom! freedom! freedom! happy overload! i mean, who wouldn't be happy? just spending countless times on the net. wasting your time on dramas, internet games, mangas and what not. not to mention, going crazy with your peeps without a single care in the world? gosh, that's practically the best thing ever.

so, what am i gonna do for the holiday? not much. my house is maid-less now so cleaning and such is for me to do and when i'm done, i can do whatever i want.. unless my dad starts nagging like a 80 year old lady. it's not like i dislike my dad, i just hate him and.. that's that.

guess what? my brother is finally coming home! after, well i don't know, 9 months? he's finally coming home and i missed him so! oh gosh, i can just imagine how my holiday is going to be. him and me, just having war all day. when i say war, i meant playing Sengoku Basara and Gundam Warriors. war it is. i don't think ya'll care so.. i'll just move on to the topic.

this issue, has been bothering me since i became part of the KPOP fanatic. what each fandom is trying to prevent is getting hate from another fandom, you know? they are trying to protect their biases and i am not going to deny that i do the same thing either. think about it. whenever something comes up like for example, the time when G-Dragon was accused of plagiarism. i was just starting my journey on this KPOP thing and what i have noticed is that other people, like for example ELFs bash on him. come on, why bash on him? he's human and we all make mistakes, correct?

some lifeless people even create groups like "ANTI SNSD" or even "ANTI ELF" or some shit they can come up with. what's with all these hate?! i know you dislike SNSD but do you have to go to these measure to say how much you hate them? and people who are supporting them, you're fucked up. fucked up. i'm not just talking about SNSD, i'm talking every band.

i know how that feels. i gotta admit, i'm not very fond of SNSD either but i wouldn't go to that extend and telling the whole cyber universe about what i feel about them, right? we all have some bands we aren't that fond of but most of us ignore it and still support them along the way 'cause you know, they're huge in the entertainment industry for a reason. they're not just there for display and they became that famous is because they are exceptionally talented.

let's open our views more. what else can these antis do to scare the band? well, how about wrting hate letters to the band with our blood? that'd be great, right? oh my goodness. these people are stupid. one, the moment they cut their hands and bleed, they're dying. god, you're gonna die for someone you dislike and they're much richer than you? two, why would you go to this extend? what's the point? the moment they see that letter, they're going to get scared for a while then after that, they're going to think that haters are just gonna hate and ignore the fuck out of you. am i not stating something here?

Antis, stop hating. you bitches have got to get out of the cyber area and see the sun once in a while. creating hate and friction gets you no where. live life, people! i've seen all you people saying each band sucks cocks and stuff. come on, doing that makes yourself seems childish and immature. i'm sure that a quarter of this world is into KPOP and you're just embarrassing yourself to a large amount of people so stop what you're doing!

i guess i should end my post here! these people really disgust me to the max and i can't continue raging about them. i'm just wasting my time and energy to rage on them but i want to stop all these. THESE, are not helping. ya'll are making this world look bad.

oh right. since it's the holidays, i've promise to blog more. i will! but finding stuffs to blog about is going to be tough. i think i can manage. so see ya'll next time. i'm off to play some Pangya. also, congratulations on SNSD for their third win in Inkigayo! i wish to see more of them! i know i said i'm not very fond of them but heck, they deserve to win. so goodbye guys!

BIGBANG WON EMA!

2011-11-07T09:30:00.005+08:00

hello there peeps! i know i haven't been blogging in a while due to the exams but heck, i have been updating myself also! it's not all work, there's still a lil' bit of play. how you guys been? 'cause fuck, I FEEL FUCKING AWESOME. words can't describe how i feel now.

right now, my eyes are half open, nose is sniffing, i feel fucking sleepy. definitely not the best condition to fully concentrate on my exams. i feel horrible! i keep sneezing every 10 second. god knows how i'm going to concentrate on my Biology! but heck, all these difficulty i'm facing is nothing compared to the excitement and happiness i got from my favourite, most wonderful and talented band ever, BIG BANG.

i spent countless nights, voting online just for them to win. lacking sleep and precious time and no, i'm not stating that BIG BANG is actually ruining my social life and health 'cause they didn't. i bring this on myself and know what? i love every single fucking second i spent on BIG BANG. no regrets.

you know, during the voting period Britney's fans have been trashing BIG BANG, saying BIG BANG will never win and how stupid and worthless they are just for all the wrong things they've done and as a VIP, i'm hurt by such comments. even if i'm hurt, i wouldn't drag myself down to their level and bash about Britney. but hey, this is the price they pay for messing with us VIPs.

note, i'm not actually bashing on Britney's fans. i think they're wonderful too for protecting Britney and supporting her and everything. i know Britney has gone through a lot and stuff and i guess her fans are just trying to bring her back to her feet. you know.

i actually woke up at 4 am in the morning just to wake the EMA. let me tell you this, waking up with sniffy nose is not a good sign at all. look at me now. i look horrendous. i mean, you can't see me but i can and i say, i look horrendous. my hair isn't comb properly, i have a tissue stuck up my nose, my eyelids looks heavy, face full of pimples due to lack of sleep. not a good sight.

so yeah, i woke up. turn on the tv to watch the EMA. practically yawning every single time. not saying that the performances were boring, they weren't. i was just too tired from voting on the poll last night. each performances went by quick. it's very nice to watch for someone who has not much interest in English songs. as each awards were mentioned, nervousness keeps growing in me. i was really worried that BIG BANG might not win 'cause Britney fans were also very dedicated to their icon. but heck, VIPs are awesome. this fandom, is amazing! look at the two pictures below.

we.. i could have never imagine this. WE SURPASSED BELIEBERS! VIPs ARE DA BOMB PEOPLE. i mean, think about it. BELIEBERS! the biggest fan base i've known so far! they should have tweeted more than US! i know beliebers, they would get Justin Bieber trending in seconds! this is.. oh my god. the biggest shock i've got! not a bad shock, more like "i'm happy and it's shocking" shock.

right, as i was watching.. they finally announce the nominees for the Worldwide Act, my heart just starts thumping really hard. nervous.. nervous.. excited and anxious for the result. ".. BIG BANG, Asia Pacific. From the Asia Pacific" OMG WTFBBQ MY LIFE JUST CHANGED. hgfnxhvnxfgfqhgbe.

i screamed. i motha fucking sreamed. like a little who just got a lollipop and when GD and YongBae starts making their speeches, my eyes teared up a little. did you see the way GD smiles? FINALLY smiles? and Daesung too! he finally smiled after the accident! oh, i just can't. hold in the tears. yes, they've won. they have made history! (not actually confirmed on this fact) they are actually the first international band to win the EMA Award! i am so elated to be a part of this fandom. :')

enough of me ranting on. here's some videos and pictures of the event.

BIG BANG's Acceptance Speech

BIGBANG's Interview

RED CARPET MOMENTS (before the awards)

RECEIVING THE AWARD

AFTER RECEIVING THE AWARD

PICTURES WITH OTHER IDOLS

with Katy Perry

with Jessie J.

with Queen's Bryan May and Roger Taylor

with Jeremy Scott

and, and BIG BANG actually got 58 million votes out of 158 million in total! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? us, VIPs, have the power to vote 58 million times!

so here, i want to say THANK YOU to all the people that voted for BIG BANG. i know BIG BANG has their ups and downs and we, VIPs only can just sit there and cry and hope that everything is okay, nothing we could do to actually help them but just giving them support. but we changed that. not only did we give them the opportunity to have such an awesome award but also, got back their smiles! and i hope, we VIPs will always be together! :')

i guess it's time for me to stop blogging. longest post i've had so far. off to study Biology. such a drag but hell, i wanna get a credit so i'm pulling an all-nighter tonight. wish me luck peepole! also, i am anticipated to wait for BIG BANG's comeback.. as 5. no matter how long it takes, i'll wait. well, i guess that's all. see you guys after my exams which is in one week. i'll definitely blog more during the holidays! SEE YA!

P/S: don't forget to vote for BIG BANG for Best Male Group, Best Music Video, Song of the Year and also Artist of the year for MAMA at this link : http://mama.mnet.com/en/vote.asp. come on, we need all the voting we can get! :)

source: iBigBang

Hiatus.

2011-10-21T15:21:00.003+08:00

oh herro there! yes, i have been gone for a while and i'm sorry as always. i've been rather busy actually. since the exam is arriving in one week, studying is a must now! yup, i study now. that's weird of me, huh? and also, i've been sitting alone in tuition for a while 'cause tuition teacher didn't want me to disturb the form 5 classes but heck, i'm concentrating on my work more!

have you guys seen Girls Generation's new music video? IT'S A-MAH-ZING! i'm not a big fan of SNSD if you can tell from my previous posts before but this is.. speechless. if you have noticed, this time their song isn't repetitive like all their other songs so a big clap to them for that! going out of the box. a 8/10 for them!

KOREAN VERSION

great. they actually blocked the ENG. ver for my country! luckily i saw it on the day it was released. it's too bad though. this one isn't actually for the actual SM Entertainment youtube account but at least there's something right?

ENGLISH VERSION

so, you heard both of them. i like the English version more. not only because i understand what they are saying but it's catchier than the Korean version. for me, that is. the music video is amazing! i like how the concept of the video is a little dark, not all girly and stuff and also the scene of the falling rose petals.. aah. that's gorgeous! but what concerns me is that the first 1 minute of the video sounds a bit like DBSK's Keep Your Head Down teaser without the vocals?

i'm not really sure of that myself. been wondering since i saw SNSD's teaser.

oh yeah, i'll be on hiatus until my exam is finish which is.. November 12! SO MUCH TO DO ON NOVEMBER! it's gonna be hella busy! so excited for it to come! my friends are finishing their O'Levels on the 16th and my brother is coming home on the next day! finally! after 9 months my brother is coming home! oh, how i miss him! and he'll be here until February but going back before my birthday. my wish just couldn't be granted.

well, just a short post for ya'll now. I WILL BE BACK! I PROMISE! after i conquer my studies! hahaha! okay then, ciao!

River Flows in You

2011-10-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

ya'll should really watch this. :'(

Disney saved us all..?

2011-10-14T22:02:00.002+08:00

well hello there! yes, i'm here to kill time while waiting for High Kick to buffer.. again! THAT DRAMA IS JUST SO AMAZING. and funny! it's still on-going of course. there's like more than 100 episodes and only 15 is out! this is seriously gonna affect my studies!

confused by the title? well, just today i found some really fascinating stuff on Wikipedia about fairytales which we all enjoyed watching on Disney Channel. Cinderella, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, The Little Mermaid. don't they all just bring back memories? but you know what? what i found was rather frightening.

in Cinderella, the story wasn't actually what it was on Disney. some parts of the story:

(...)

"The next morning, the Prince went into Aschenputtel's house and tried the slipper on the first sister. The sister cut off her heel in order to fit the slipper, and while riding with the prince, the doves living on the tree alert the Prince to her treachery. So he went back again and tried the slipper to the other sister.

The sister cut off her toe in order to get in her foot in the slipper, and again the Prince was mistaken. While he was riding with her on the way to the king's castle, the doves alerted the Prince again. Dejected and furious, he came back to inquire for another girl.
Now the gentleman told him that they kept an Ashy-Slut in the house, and the Prince asked him to let her try the slipper. The girl appeared clean and modest, and when she had put on the slipper, the Prince recognized her as the Dancing Stranger he met at the Feast.
In the end during Aschenputtel's wedding, as she was walking down the aisle with her stepsisters as her bridesmaids, the birds flew down and struck the two sisters blind, one in the left eye and the other in the right. When the wedding ended, and Cinderella and her Prince was marching out of the church, the doves swooped down and again, struck the two sisters completely blind, for the rest of their lives."

oh my god, did you just read that? isn't that horrible? the actual story is this frightening and i would've never expected this. i mean, happy endings and stuff. they do have a happy ending but it was kinda cruel, y'know?

another story is The Little Mermaid. look back, it's wonderful right? it used to be my favourite movie of all time! the red hair, swimming underwater and even live underwater! THAT'S FUCKING AWESOME I TELL YOU. then the ending, her with the prince. aaah. i really wanted to be the little mermaid when i was young! when i actually discovered the REAL story, my childhood is crushed.

"The Little Mermaid lives in an underwater kingdom with her father the sea king, her grandmother, and her five elder sisters. Mermaids are allowed to venture to the surface when they turn fifteen and, at the appropriate time, the Little Mermaid rises to the surface. She falls in love with a handsome prince she spies aboard a magnificent vessel. A great storm arises, and the prince is cast overboard. The Little Mermaid rescues him and delivers him unconscious to the shore near a temple. She lingers nearby. A maiden emerges from the temple, finds the prince, and summons help. The Little Mermaid returns to the sea bottom without being seen.

The Little Mermaid’s grandmother tells her that merfolk die and dissolve into sea foam while humans have souls that live forever in Heaven. The Little Mermaid, longing for the prince and an eternal soul, visits the Sea Witch, who sells her a potion that will transform her fish tail into human legs. The potion’s price is nothing less than the mermaid’s voice. She will walk in pain and can never return to the sea. In addition, she will only acquire a soul if the prince loves and marries her. Otherwise, she will die brokenhearted and dissolve into sea foam.

The Little Mermaid buys the potion, gains legs, and meets the prince. Though she is mute, the two become fast friends and constant companions. The day comes however when the prince discovers the temple maiden. He has long loved her, and they marry. The Little Mermaid is heart broken. Her sisters bring her the Sea Witch’s knife with the instruction that she kill the prince. In doing so, she can return to the sea. She cannot bring herself to do such a deed, and throws herself into the sea. She dissolves into sea foam, but then is transformed into a spirit, a daughter of the air. Her companion daughters of the air tell her she can earn an immortal soul by doing good deeds for three hundred years."

the story is quite short though but in the end The Little Mermaid did not get a happy ending and disappeared. how sad is that? imagine if the movie was based on this story and every one of us watched it when we were a kid, we'd be fucking upset. we'd cry and sob and our mothers be furious at Disney if they actually did it!

so, did Disney saved our childhood? of course it did! if it was based on the actual stories and keeping in mind that teenagers now are so desperate for "love", we would be cutting of our bodies just to satisfy the opposite sex. ew, imagine that! cutting off toes just to buy shoes at a smaller size! the society would be fucked and we will look like fuck too! to walk with only 3 toes? -shudders-

so Disney, i would like to thank you for not spoiling our childhood! it didn't turn us into cruel human beings but rather turn us all into one that believes in hopes and dreams! well, i can't actually thank you because you're turning the generation now into bitches and assholes with all those new series. can't say i'm not being honest!

yup, just a short post to kill time! my time to watch High Kick now! MWEHEHEHE! okay, see you guys next time!

ADOWABLE!

2011-10-12T14:30:00.001+08:00

OH MY GOODNESS! IT SO ADOWABLE! SO CUTEEE! (squealing)

Be myself? What is the real me?

2011-10-11T21:43:00.005+08:00

oh herro there! welcome to this stranded blog which no one reads~ HAHA. okay, i was actually just back from tuition and is loading High Kick episode 8! seriously, that drama is getting to me and the worst part is that it has 120 episodes. right now, it was only broadcasted until episode 13. imagine how long would that be?

had an awesome time in tuition today! i brought my Patchi chocolate there to share it with all my tuition mate! it's too bad some people didn't come. yvonne, wang wen and me ate the most portions and we were.. talking crap. LOADS OF FUNNY CRAP. oh my goodness. my head and jaw hurts right now.

aaah! it's good that i can laugh freely with my friends in tuition. i feel so trapped at home. once i stepped in the car, my smile, happiness all vanished. it's actually pretty hard to be myself at home when my parents expect me to be as mature as possible considering that i'm growing up and stuff. since i was a kid, my parents always expect a lot from me. i have to have good manners, being their perfect child and stuff. i was never really me and it's hard like that.

apart from my family, even with my friends sometimes. i display different sides of myself to different people according to their personalities and attitude. yes, i investigate properly before using the wrong personalities of myself to the wrong people. if you're more serious, i can be serious too. if you're the random type, i'm also here. if you're those pervert minded people, i can probably manage. see? i can adapt myself according to other people. so these days, i've been in deep thought. what is the real me? how am i really like actually? i tried asking my friends, "what do you think of me?" and all they could answer is, "oh, you're weird and funny and crazy." i'm kinda flattered to hear all those but those are considered as positive remarks. what i wanted to hear was negative remarks, what they hated about me, what i did that want to make them slap me in the face. that's what i really wanted to hear. to change myself.

i guess i'll stop here for now. i'm kinda tired and stuff and this topic is kinda drifting away from it's title. i make no sense. so does non-existing stuffs. if they are non-existant, why would you even create it in the first place? LOL. okay, okay. it's kinda late. so goodnight!

Need to start acting.

2011-10-07T15:21:00.002+08:00

hello all! i guess all of you are well today since it's Friday. TGIF! but i can guess that some of you might be nervous about the GCE O'level exams which starts next week and from the bottom of my heart, i wish you all good luck. y'know, God is by your side to help you along and work hard too! time to put an all-nighter, aight?

if you've been following me on Twitter and also keeping tracks on my tweets, ever have i mention that i wanted to improve my studies by studying, lose weight, drink more water, save money for future use but i don't see myself doing all those stuff.

the first one, studying. oh my gosh, i can't even sit there for an hour to study without staring at my laptop half the time and it's hard 'cause i didn't get to practice studying since i was a kid. studying isn't my thing at all but i really want to accomplish my dream of getting a scholarship so i didn't have to waste a year of my mother's salary supporting me. i know it's tough for my mother to support me all my life, as well as my brother and sister. this is one task i can't actually do.

second, losing weight. with low blood pressure and hypoglycemia, i am unable to exercise properly without fainting and being supported by at least 2-3 cans of coke. now you all know why i usually order coke when i'm outdoors. plus, i've been eating way too junk food and fucking delicious Japanese curry and pastas at home. even talking about it now makes me drool! and the temptation to wear any clothes i like is killing me!

third, drinking water. i don't drink water. not at all. before this month, i didn't even drink at least 2 cups of water a day and sometimes i just survive with one mouth of water. that's seriously all. so as each day passed, i grew more pimples by not drinking the sufficient amount of water and my lips turned red for months. my parents have been nagging on drinking more water but heck, i'm a stubborn kid.

fourth, saving money. now, this is a hassle 'cause my father gives me $3 for each school day so it's like $15 a week, right? i save them all but here's the catch, when my friends are going out for lunch etc, i can't help but spend it all in one place especially if it's for lunch! LUNCH. FOOD. OH MY GOODNESS FOOD. not only that, if i'm going Miri, i had to spend it all on books so now i have like 5-6 books that i haven't even started reading! i'm in a mess.

so, if i was fussing about doing all those stuff i should just go and do it right? i just need the right thing to stir me up and i found some! if i wanted to study, i have to keep my laptop beside me at all times 'cause if i kept it away, i'm gonna go get it once again anyways so by keeping it by my side, i can concentrate on my studies while updating myself on twitter! seems bad for ya'll but works great on me!

since i am very interested in learning KPOP dances now, that's it isn't it? dancing also loses weight! oh my gosh! best solutions ever! but of course, there's the need for time, right? so that's also another problem since i'm my laptop 24/7.

while the other two, i'm still thinking of ways to accomplish it. it's gonna be hard but heck, it's 2/4 of the things i'm doing. at least i'm doing something that i'm gonna be so proud of myself in the future! HAHAHA. i think so. i'm not sure. yeah, at least i'm making progress.

yup, take this from me and y'know, look far. look beyond the present and think of all the things that could happen if you had/hadn't done it! i'm looking at it right now. SHOPPING 24HRS AND ANY CLOTHES I WANT. OOOH BABY.

-back to reality- if you think taking this advice from someone who isn't trying at all a complete hogwash, then you're right 'cause i ain't even trying. HAHAHA. but heck, think of the future people.

well, that's all i can type for now. i have to watch iCarly in about 15 minutes from now and will probably do some sit ups while at it.. if that is, i didn't find anything to stuff myself while watching TV.. okay, see you soon then!

No, please don't.

2011-10-05T22:10:00.002+08:00

hey ya'll.

sorry for the into introduction. i'm not motivated to type out a long one as my patience is being tested on the fucking slow buffering of High Kick episodes 3 and 4. UGH, LOAD FASTER BITCH.

sorry for the cuss word too.

so recently, i've been going on and on about my birthday a lot. maybe because i wanted to show it off (no chizz. i actually do that sometimes) but then, some of my friends got pumped up and said, "YOU'RE GOING TO THROW AN AWESOME PARTY RIGHT?" or " i'll throw you an awesome party!" and then i paused. like literally because i DON'T like all those hassles of planning this birthday party. even if i did reason it with my friend, they'll say something like it's my sweet sixteen and shit.

another thing is that, they wanted to buy presents i guess? but i don't want it. 'cause one, you'll be wasting your precious time and money to buy something that i might not use in my daily life. you see, i don't like throwing people's money on me unless you're one of my siblings.. but yeah. or you can ask me what i would like then you go buy it. that would be fair. HAHAHAHA. i just spoiled the meaning of presents, didn't i?

if you really asked, "what would you like for your birthday?" i would probably answer nothing. not exactly nothing but nothing that you can buy 'cause all i want for my birthday is lunch/dinner with my family, the whole family including my sister and brother, happily and stuff. i've never really had that. sad, isn't it?

oh, just a head start. i'm going to deactivate my Facebook account around that time to avoid my inbox being raped. ugh, i hate that. how can people live with so many notifications?!

so anyways, guess it's the end of this post. High Kick has just finish buffering. that happy moment after you waited for something for so long : FUCK YEAH BITCHH! yup, imma off to watch High Kick now. goodnight! will try and update more in the future.

RAWR!

2011-10-05T14:07:00.000+08:00

Don't let people bring you down!

2011-09-28T22:08:00.002+08:00

oh herro there! yes, i don't blog often do i? maybe it's because i feel the need to blog about this particular topic and also, i was waiting for High Kick 3 to buffer. ho ho ho, another new K-drama to watch. wasn't actually interested in this drama, just going to watch it 'cause Lee Jong Suk is one of the main actors there! hehehe!

you know, recently (which is also this year) i saw tons and tons of cases about teenagers about my age committing suicide just because of bullies. us teenagers are called by so many different hurtful words. slut, whore, bitch, prostitute, gay, lesbian. i mean, come on. don't you feel offended if someone put on their serious face and called you a bitch when you've done absolutely nothing to them? and remember, think about other people. some people can't handle all the criticism and starts to find a way to escape all this and this, is what is leading to suicides.

is this what people wants? is society that cruel? even if it's just a joke, every word that comes out of your mouth comes off strong to other people. watch what you are saying, put yourself in their shoes and think about it. will that person mind? will that person get paranoid and all? think about the consequences.

just a few days ago in Twitter nation, "RIP JAMEY" was trending and you know, as a tweeter i thought a pop star passed away or something but when i track down the hash tag, i found out that he committed suicide just because the people in his school teased him about being gay and turning against him because he's.. "abnormal".

let me tell you this STRAIGHT PEOPLE. gay people and lesbians, they are still humans. they still have feelings and emotions like us. aren't we all human being? just because they're different from the people you hang out with, doesn't mean that they're some kind of extraterrestrial alien kind of thing just landed here. lots of you straight people say that gays and lesbians are the one embarrassing the human race but in fact, you guys judging them, are the ones who are embarrassing the human race.

they are born that way. they have no control or whatsoever. they did not choose to become gays and lesbians on their own. it's in their hormones and they are just trying to adapt to their nature and you guys are the one affecting them. without them, we're losing the balance of the world.

so to all you people who have been called multiple insulting names, FUCK THEM. pay no attention to them 'cause you know what? you are BEAUTIFUL. inside and out. for me, everyone is beautiful in their own way. you just have to let yourself shine! don't let all those bitches affect yourself! take my advice and live life happily! if you're a guy and you wanna hump another guy. GO AHEAD. there's nothing wrong in being different from the normies 'cause you're the special one.

*note: why am i suddenly publicizing about this matter? it's because i've seen way too much suicide cases about teenage girls/boys in tumblr where they are bullied by the people in their schools and i just couldn't stomach it anymore. it's sickening to see how the society reacts these matters. oh gosh.

well, about time i end this post. be sure to KEEP THIS IN MIND. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND THERE'S NO REASON AT ALL TO HATE ON OTHERS.

okay, see ya!

KITE FESTIVAL!

2011-09-26T22:06:00.005+08:00

herro there everybody! my name is.. well, you already know my name. i think. so yeah, been a while since i blogged, eh? ya di ya di ya. i have my reasons, as usual and you probably know already what the reason is. HAHA.

if you are quite updated on my twitter, you might have know that i went to Bintulu last Saturday for the International Kite Festival held there. it was a rather enjoyable experience for me except for the fact that we were going there by car again and.. the ride for me was, uneasy. bumps everywhere. GOSH, why can't they repair the road or something?!

okay, anyways. the festival was really awesome! all kinds of kites and stuff. beside the field where they flew all their kites, there were A LOT of stalls but none of them really caught my attention. there were a variety of stalls, of course. some of them sell clothes, some of them sell jewelries and some sell traditional crafts. i'm not saying they were unattractive but if you'd been to Kuching for a lot of times, things like that just does not excite you anymore.

TIME FOR PICTURES!

look at all the flags!

even Brunei is there! PROUD.

LOOK AT THE HUGE 3D KITES MAN!

look at the fishes.

sky full of kites! pretty, ain't it?

my parents.

MY FAVOURITE! 'cause i'm doing exactly what it says!

aww! look at her imitating on flying a kite! adoraaaable!

one last shot before i left.

that's all i have for the pictures. it was actually a pretty nice day that day since it wasn't that hot and you can feel the cool breeze. best weather for flying a kite but what do i know? i've never flown a kite. tried but failed terribly.

SONGS UPDATE:

so Super Junior has just released their latest MV called A-CHA. i gotta say, it's the same concept. guess they're keeping a safety zone or something or maybe it's their majority. but i think it's really their majority to make dance songs and hyped up and stuff. yup, that's what make each group unique, right?

this song.. is ADDICTING. like Mr.Simple, you just replaying that shit. spamming and spamming and spamming. non-stop. oh, SM Entertainment, you are good. throughout this whole post, i was actually playing this song so you can guess how addicting it is. giving it an 8/10 for being so addictive.

another group also released a new song recently called Brown Eyed Girls. you might have remembered them from the song, Abracadabra. yes, that song was quite the butt-shaking song. now they have come back with a new song called Sixth Sense.

to be honest, I LOVE THE WHOLE MV CONCEPT. the army, the girls handcuffed and all, then one of the girls was floating in a pond inside all those branches. oh god, that is pretty. but the song.. it was a bit of a let down for me? i don't love it, i just find it okay. i don't know, i find the song.. messy. would probably give it a 7/10 since the MV was amazing.

yup, ending this post abruptly like a boss.

BYE!

Sick but.. okay?

2011-09-18T20:37:00.002+08:00

helloooooooo people! and yes, i am gonna start this post to once again apologise for being a fucking lazy person and not updating this blog at all. it's been like, what, one week or something? if you're suggesting i should actually plan my time and blog on a fixed day.. that might work and hey, who am i blogging for? i don't have much readers anyways. 8D

a little update on my life for you.

I GOT A CAT MOTHAFUCKA and her name is Chocolate! why the delicious name? 'cause my mum and i didn't know what kind of name to give and hey, chocolate. perfect. it's so cuteeeeee and noisy. it meows everytime when i fill his bowl with food. i think he wants something else to eat eh? hmmm.

since life has it's up and downs, i'm going to tell you the sad part. i got my report book in the beginning of this week and it's rather disappointing. my average has dropped drastically and i have no idea how i am going to present this to my parents. i mean, come on. i got 2Ds, an F and my D-Maths dropped from an A1 to a C. wow. biggest disappointment in MY LIFE. so far. it ain't a very good feeling so this term, hopefully, i can sort out my time and throw away my habits of spending endless time on the internet, to focusing more on my Biology. yep, my goal is set!

so, if you are following me on twitter you should probably know that i'm sick at the moment. well, it's not major to the extent that i mummify myself in bed. nawww, it's actually just the usual suspects anyways. a really bad cold, headache from time to time and the urge to eat potato chips. now, why would i want to eat something like that in this condition? ~~maybe to worsen my throat so i don't have to go to school the next day.~~

so at this kind of time, i shouldn't blog anyway. more the reason to be lazy. -cough- i mean, it's just that i don't have that energy to type and see if i've made mistakes in my post and shit. HAHAHA just kidding.

even if i'm sick, i'm kinda used to it. 'cause in a year, i got to have this kind of symptoms 4-5 times and it sucks 'cause whenever i do have it, there's always something fun to do and i can't enjoy it! i think the reason why i'm constantly sick is because i overexcite myself. MAYBE, THAT'S WHY. but at least my condition is much, much better than what i have last year.

last year, some of you guys may not know it but i get sick a lot in school and constantly have period pain when it's that time of the month and it's really, really bad 'cause i can't actually concentrate on my studies. during the holidays, i would get really sick WHEN i'm not out with my friends or off to a vacation but not every holidays though. and i guess this year it's been much better since i've been watching what i eat lately and yeah. so much better.

so this is the end of this post. if you see me using vulgar words that means, i'm trying to use my attitude in real life and typing this down and that's just how i really talk and you can't change that. okay, BYE GUYS.

(sorry for the abrupt end)

2 GIRLS 1 CUP

2011-09-10T00:09:00.001+08:00

hey guys! what's up? anything interesting happened recently in your life? 'cause mine sure did! little girls thinking they are all that and trying to pick a fight with the upper class. so. not. cool. at. all. nope, not gonna talk about that at all. been talking about it for days and i'm kinda sick of it.

have you guys ever heard of 2 girls 1 cup? if you have, don't. I REPEAT DON'T. be a curious person and search that up on google. DON'T DO IT. DON'T BE A LOSER AND GOOGLE IT. it's the most disgusting thing i've seen so far. this is what stops me from watching porn.

i'll tell you what i actually saw before i close it after watching it halfway. first, it started out with two girls naked and kissing each other, making out. here, i thought it was going to lesbian porn and i thought, "hey! it might not be bad to watch it at least ONCE.." so i went ahead and continued the video... and it was the worst moment of my life.

WARNING: CONTINUE AT YOUR OWN RISK. DO NOT READ IN FRONT OF PARENTS.

right after that sexual scene, one of girls took a cup and literally shat in the cup. you wanna know how the shit looks like? ohh, it's like chocolate chip BUT FUCKING DISGUSTING. WHY AM I DESCRIBING THIS?! okay, so right after she shat, both of them licked it. licked it. just licked it. are you actually picturing this? LICKING IT. oh good lord.

after they happily licking their own doodoo, one of the girls made herself puked and she did not just puked onto the floor. she puked into the other girl's mouth. NOW THIS IS WHERE I CLOSED THE VIDEO. it's just.. sick to watch it. i mean, who would actually do those kind of things?! ughhh! thinking about it again makes me wanna puke myself!

so guys, please. save yourself and NOT GOOGLE THIS SHIT but if you wanna experience something "new" then go ahead. have fun. don't say i didn't warn ya!

Note: so yeah guys, this was suppose to be posted yesterday but i was really distracted by Twitter and YouTube at the same time which results in.. this. HAHAHA. hey, at least i "remembered" to post it up! :D

Personal views on 2NE1

2011-09-04T17:58:00.002+08:00

hey there, you! yup, so i'm finally (once again) back to blogging. i've been rather busy and no, i'm not gonna say busy lazying around 'cause it ain't true at all. i've been outstation and it's been one hectic week.

i went to Kuala Lumpur last Saturday and remain there till this Tuesday but i think my mum wasn't please with that much time spend in Kuala Lumpur so the next day, we had a journey to Kuching. by car. butt hurts. crap. HAHAHA. the trip was not pleasant, at all! you know, bumps on the road so most of the time you're not really on the seat. more like flying then crashing down countless times. imagine my pain.

so in this post, i am not going to talk about my trip to both Kuala Lumpur and Kuching. it's because i don't feel like doing it as it's not as interesting as any other person's trip.

title says it all. i'm gonna be blogging about my personal views in 2NE1. the bad and the good. i'm gonna be as honest as possible and not taking 2NE1's side (don't trust me on this). i might be comparing them to other female Kpop groups so don't accuse me of bashing them or looking down on them 'cause like i said, everything is in my point of view.

Appearance - well, they're not ugly nor they are hot. look at SNSD for instance, they are fucking hot. every guys' dream. their boobies, their butts, their curves got guys drooling over them. 2NE1 does not make a guy feel that way. i gotta admit 2NE1 is not hot but beautiful.

Clothing - their style is very... unique. tom-boyish. a lot of people find it rather inappropriate for them to wear like this 'cause the clothes they wear does not shout, "i'm a girly girl and i wear Prada and expensive jewelry to show my inner girliness." they dress and wear as they like and that's what i admire of them. they don't give a fuck about what people criticize about them.

Voice - this i have to judge them individually.

CL - to tell the truth, i don't really like CL's voice. she has this sharp voice that pierce into your ears and will soon find it rather annoying but in terms of 2NE1, her voice plays a big part actually. so in 2NE1's song, her voice is fucking awesome. wait, does this make any sense to you?

Bom - now, her voice is my favourite in this group. it's sweet, strong (i guess) and very nice to hear. i don't really have any comment about her voice. I JUST LOVE IT!

Minzy - her voice is okay. i'm not saying it's not awesome, it is! i really like it when she sings those more rock-ish type of songs (?). it really brings out her voice and if she does go solo, i would support her.

Dara - Dara.. Dara.. hmm. this is kinda a hard one. she's.. hard to say because in Kiss, she sounds good, not bad but good but in 2NE1's song, i don't really notice her. it's like she doesn't really stand out that much. for me, she's like singing background. i'm sorry Dara fans but like i said earlier, i'm being honest.

Song Style - i gotta say, i like 2NE1 for having many different patterns to their songs. it's really unexpected. like when i first listened to I AM THE BEST, i'm trying to figure out what are they gonna do, how are they gonna sing this. they got me hooked up but when i listen to SNSD's song, they are all the same. chorus : repeat the title song over and over again but in 2NE1's case, IT'S ALWAYS DIFFERENT! if you actually compare them both, you understand what i mean.

Rating - overall, i think 2NE1 is the best Korean female group i've listened to. so far. i can't really say they are the best now because maybe sooner or later i'm going to adapt to another female group and prolly worship the hell out of them. so for the time being, i rate 2NE1.. 8/10! can't wait for more! really am looking foward to what they are gonna give us fans in the future!

Note: in this post, you keep seeing me comparing 2NE1 to SNSD. i'm not bashing SNSD. they make good songs but sometimes they bore the hell out of me. it's always the same thing and i am merely stating the truth (for me).

so yup, that's all i guess. end of this post! WILL BLOG NEXT TIME! byee peeps!

10 facts about me

2011-08-23T09:19:00.003+08:00

hey guys. so now i'm finally back from hiatus and i actually feel great 'cause these days, i've been really happy unlike that few days where i was depressed about the world and all that shit. LIFE FEELS GREAT WHEN YOU'RE HAPPY. yup, it is.

so today i'm not gonna post up something boring at all. i'm gonna do something a tad bit fun! yes, you can see from the title, i'm gonna do facts about me that you guys would've never guessed about me. so here goes!

1. as you all know, i'm born on the 29th February and some of you might think that, "Oh, since her birthday happens every 4 years, she's gonna have a fucking awesome birthday party to celebrate it." well, no. i don't really have the intention to host such a big party 'cause i think it's rather troublesome. ideal party: a cake with my family. nothing else. oh, maybe they could give me something expensive.

2. I. HATE. STUDYING. read it. remember it. never forget it. ugh, the thought of it actually makes my mood down. thumbs down people. i can't really sit down and study at all! i bet you all i can't even last for at least an hour!

3. i'm a night person. i'm very energetic in the night. i can keep my eyes open till at least 2am in the morning then i hit the sack but when you call me up at let's say, 11am? gosh, i'm going to be as tired as fuck. as long as the sky is dark, i'm full of energy.

4. i eat a lot. i've heard people say that i'm quite thin (which is untrue) but i have the tendency to eat and eat and eat and boom! i've gained 2kg. i can eat full three meals a day plus snacks in between. that's when i'm at home. when i'm out, oh good lord. i'm a eating machine.

5. i'm super lazy. lazy to the bone. i gotta admit 'cause sooner or later someone's gonna say it anyway.

6. i used to bite my nails a lot until the white part of the nails are gone. pretty disgusting.. i know. i used to hurt my fingers when i cut them with nail-cutters and i couldn't resist getting hurt again, so i bite them. fyi, don't bite them now.

7. reading novels, especially romantic ones really, REALLY makes me happy. well, not happy.. i LOVE reading them. if there's a little bit of sex involved (i don't mind if there's a lot too), I HAVE GOTTA READ THEM. <3

8. i have this really bad habit which i always blame myself when someone is raging. yup, seriously. i take the blame all on me, saying i did something wrong when i didn't. i just couldn't stand the fact if i really upset someone i really care.

9. i love, absolutely adore looking at the clear blue sky. all filled with clouds and endless. makes me all.. calm, not a care in the world at all and filled me with hopes and dreams. maybe some time when i'm upset or angry, i look up at the sky and it really calms me down. it's as if they're telling me that being upset or angry doesn't really solve my problems at all.

10. last for best? I AM FUCKING AWESOME! you gotta admit it. HAHAHA.

well, yeah. that's all. i'm sorry, i couldn't think of anything for the last one so i.. did that.. pardon me, partner. i hope this lets you understand a bit about me, or not. it doesn't really matter if you know this anyway.

so yeah, i'm gonna end this right here! probably gonna blog again some time soon. see ya'll soon! :D

May You Rest in Peace.

2011-08-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

hey guys. i know i'm on hiatus and stuff but i just gonna take a time and blog this down. this is really heart wrenching.

just a few minutes ago, my mother received the news that my aunt just passed away. we're not really blood related at all but she and my mum had some blood connection. she's the aunt that used to take care of me when i was just a tiny toddler when my parents were out working. she plays an important role in my life. sure, i might not have talked to her a lot as i am quite speechless when i visit her once in a while but the feelings for her was there. i feel elated and happy despite my tongue tied attitude.

my brother and sister will be devastated if they heard the news. she used to take care of them all the time. ever since they were toddlers too but much longer than me. to them, she's the second mother. she's the one who fetch them home from school, she helped them with their homeworks, she cooked for them. nothing, nothing at all can break those bonds. to them, she's probably far more family than my real aunts.

Rest in peace, kim kim. you will surely reach the best place ever. you will always be remembered and will always be inside our heart. all the things you had done for us, we are so grateful for them.

Hiatus

2011-08-09T21:25:00.002+08:00

okay.. this is gonna be the first time announcing that i will be on hiatus. i am currently having my exams and yes, i do wanna get good grades this term unlike the years passed by, i've been slacking off and pass with my eyes closed. i've opened my eyes (but i wished i didn't) to see that GCE O'level is not gonna be a piece of cake. i am gonna pick up my courage to face the hours of horrifying studying (for me).

not only that, i also wanted to take a break from this "drama" that had happened in my ShoutMix few days ago. it's pretty weird, ain't it? she isn't replying anymore. it's like she's scared or something. oh well. just gonna give a shout out to those who backed me up! YOU GUYS ARE LOVES, ABBY, LIP YI, YVONNE, VIVIAN, ALICE. rainbow colours!

so yeah, see you guys after the exams! or you can just say, the holidays! i noticed i kinda failed in the whole count down thing for 2NE1's Hate You Japanese.. so i apologize for that. erm, bye!

3 DAYS TO GO.

2011-08-07T16:43:00.001+08:00

Mr. Simple

2011-08-04T16:48:00.001+08:00

i'm not a big fan of Super Junior but heck this song is addicting! and yes, i am seven hours late.

okay, what now?

2011-08-02T20:16:00.003+08:00

okay, i am not gonna start with my usual greeting as i'm pissed about this particular topic and also does not have the time to waste on this topic.

if you see on the left side of my blog, i have a shout mix and if you did read it, there's a person commented on it that says i stole his/her boyfriend 'cause i can't actually confirm this person's gender. not only that, he/she also fires loads of beautiful vocabulary and my shout mix pretty striking as you know, they had to censore the words 'cause it's user friendly (i guess?)

let me tell you this bitch, i tracked your fucking ip. address and if i'm correct, you are from Bandar and if that is right, i should congratulate myself for finding you. second of all, how am i ever going to steal your fucking ass boyfriend if you're all the way up there while i'm here in Lumut, happily sucking on my ice cream and saw this mother fucking comment on my shout mix? wow, interesting shit you have there. oh bitch, did you just tell me to get a life? DID YOU? compare to you, who just secretly typing away in my mother fucking shout mix claiming i stole your boyfriend, has like, no life at all. if you do, you wouldn't wasting your bitch ass time here bitch slapping me.

wow, if you hate me so much now for "stealing" your boyfriend, why don't you just find me out sometime? you know, give me a call or something? and i'll meet you. we'll talk this out and if it doesn't make any sense, i'll probably invite your parents after we talk 'cause it'll be your grave bitch. it will. if you are not scared of me then i don't know, things can get pretty ugly.

PIECE OF ADVICE PEOPLE: DON'T FUCKING MESS WITH ME.

and if this is all just a joke, not funny bitch. not funny. claiming i did something out of the ordinary (things that i would do) is not at all a joke. i take these things seriously. why the fuck would i break a loving couple? that's just fucking sick. have i no humanity at all? even if i did like your boyfriend, i wouldn't NEVER break you guys up. NEVER in a million years. i would actually support you two. yeah, i might get jealous sometimes but that is no way to express it.

so yeah. that's all i have to say. i'm feeling more calm now after i type my inner feelings out. haha yeah. so screw you bitch. whoever you are. screw you and you know what?

oh well, see you guys next time and sorry for the vulgar language. i promise but will not guarantee that i would not use it again in the future.

Apologetic post.

2011-08-02T08:14:00.004+08:00

hello people. i am here once again to say, i'm sorry for not updating my blog about either my personal life or some rants or anything at all. i've been terribly lazy while i constantly remind myself to do something about it but this teenage girl is practically living it's useless life.

i will probably update my blog tonight or tomorrow.. if i can just force myself to do it. oh wells, gotta go now. here's an onion head to replace me for kneeling down for forgiveness.

Describe me.

2011-07-29T17:01:00.000+08:00

SO CUTE K!

2011-07-25T22:13:00.000+08:00

I want a cat like you~

2011-07-25T22:01:00.000+08:00

gimmesomemoa

2011-07-24T13:51:00.002+08:00

hello people of the world. haha. yes i am finally back to blogging again. wow, i sound like i've been gone for months. so anyways, i was pretty lazy these days. practically doing nothing. it's either the internet or the tv but the tv is always booked by my dad so it's usually the internet. spoiling my eyes and also wasting my youth.

anyways, i am gonna blog about this amazing singer i had came across at the early start of this year. she is AMAZING. personally, i love her voice! not saying that i've taken a dislike to minhua now. i have always admire minhua! he is my favourite guy singer in YouTube. in fact, i am spamming his 'Roly Poly' cover now. HEHE. yes, i know he's not the perfect singer but i really like his voice.

well, i'm not here to spazz about minhua. i'm here to spazz about gimmesomemoa! and yes, she has deleted her YouTube account due to some errors she have in her life. heard that she belongs to a Swedish band called 'First Aid Kit' and also heard that she's only a back up singer. come on, seriously? she has an amazing voice that should be heard all over the world and get discovered by some big ass company and have her signed rather than singing back up! she's wasting her talent on being a.. how should i say it.. a second fiddle? i was actually glad that she made a YouTube account and show the world how talented she can be.

enough about that. all we should know is that she created a YouTube account, made awesome covers that receive multiple compliments but later got discovered by some fan and immediately delete her account to prevent future troubles. yup. summarized.

i'm gonna share some of the covers that i've not only heard but also embed her in my heart. right here.. in the middle.. HAHA. okay. on to the videos.

SeungRi - What Can I Do

2NE1 - Lonely

so yeah. i'm still supporting her individually. not her as a whole group/back up singer. i wish she just come back and blow up the world with her awesome voice! gah. i miss her so much.

gonna end my post here! will probably blog soon again. i'm not sure myself too. HAHA. おやすむなさい！

HEHEH~

2011-07-22T23:23:00.003+08:00

i'm so happy today! :D and i have no idea why! i just keep smiling at whatever i do on my laptop! HAHAH~ omg. i'm going insane~ throughout i was just like this..

with the rabbit of course! omg, so cute! :B :B hahah~ short post again today. was actually gonna blog about the good old childhood memories but.. TOO HAPPY TO DO IT! ;D HAHAH.

okay, goodnight peeps!

The problem with parents.

2011-07-20T22:25:00.002+08:00

hey guys, this is just gonna be a short post as it's 10.34pm right now and i have just passed my *ahem curfew.

have you guys ever have a spat with your parents? or even disagree to their opinion on thing? or maybe they made you mad for some things they did? well, think about it. what is it that they do to you that made you wanna strangle them? or even kill them with your own hands?

i have.

sometimes parents can't really understand what most teenagers are thinking or even have the time to understand their own children for while. they just had to make false statements about their kids when clearly they did nothing of that sort or isn't even their intentions at all. and when parents set their mind on that particular statement, they will constantly use it against you even if the topic doesn't relate at all. they don't make much sense, do they?

other than that, they also think they're right ALL THE TIME. even when you are right, they will argue to the end to just prove that they are right when they can't and they are wrong. meanwhile, in the process while proving yourself right, you get hit, tortured, lectured, scolded, slapped. isn't this a lil' tad bit too intense?

anyways, i'll just stop here. you all know what parents do to you. by the way, i am not referring to ALL the parents. i am just specifying those parents who are related to the one i stated above which have something in common with me. so yeah, peace out to ya'll. chillax, eat bacon and also, always listen to 2NE1 'cause their album has just been released! <3

PEACE TO ALL!

2011-07-18T22:01:00.003+08:00

well guys. i'm sorry for not frequently updating my blog. i've been pretty busy again and not to mention lazy too. there's nothing much to update on myself. just that i've been pretty emotional lately, my mood just swings from happy to sad then vice versa.

i gotta say, i don't even feel like blogging now! i just have to update you guys for a while or just post up something to keep my readers from thinking, "woah, where is she? she dead or something?" WELL, GOOD NEWS PEOPLE. i'm not dead. i'm just dehydrating a lot and also suffering from insomnia. yeah, i'm well.

to tell you guys the truth, lots and lots of things have been going through my mind 24/7 for days. my family, what's gonna become of us when we all seperate? my crush, are we still gonna ignore each other and never to talk again? my friends, are they really my friends or are they just some people who wants your vote to their popularity status? my mistakes, my past, my future, my further educational plans, my domokun, am i gonna bring my current pillow to wherever the hell i'm going when i leave for college? see, tons of things pass this tiny, little mind of mine and it ain't gonna stop.

well, i won't say much anymore. enjoy this happy .gif of pikachu! 'CAUSE HE'S SO DAMN CUTE! :B tata~ see you guys soon!

It's happening.

2011-07-14T22:52:00.000+08:00

Life's a bitch.

2011-07-14T20:27:00.002+08:00

my life is getting more complicated and all i can do now is..

sigh. wish life could be a little nicer to me so i wouldn't have to think too much and frown almost every single day. i'm still keeping strong!

No sleep for 3 consecutive nights Pt.1

2011-07-11T16:52:00.003+08:00

hey people. i am now blogging with a headache from a lack of sleep. why? it's 'cause i've been dreaming for these past few nights and how horrible they were, those dreams. 2/3 of the dreams i had made me woke up crying. how terrible is that lor?! i never had something like this till now. it kinda scares me though. is it because of my problems that i've been dreaming too much? and horrible dreams at that. or is it because i'm too stressed out about the things i'm gonna do? whatever the reason is, I WANT IT TO STOP.

the first night: was dreaming about abby, me and a group of my school friends going on a celebration at this beautiful hotel, alongside is a beach reserved for hotel guests only. oh my gosh, you cannot believe how real that dream is! the sky is sooooo pretty! it was sunset at that time so the sky is all orangey, with loads of clouds in the sky and a bit pinkish at the very end from the sun. goshhh! scenery like that is what i would like to see!

anyways, we were all having fun. at the beach but we all are done having fun so we went to the hotel to change and to find something awesome to eat. for some reason, i finished changing first and out of no where, i arrived at this huge dining room. it has gold decorations everywhere and is matched with some white on the decos. in the middle of the room, there's an extremely long table filled with tons of amazing looking food waiting for someone to just swallow them all.

i went out to the hallway and saw all my friends dressed up and is scrunching down on the carpeted floor, looking uber disappointed. i approached abby, asked her what's wrong and she screamed at my face. lol okay, i know this is weird but i remember exactly what she said. "you think we all like you, is it? you think you one of us, is it? gosh, i never liked you in the first place. so stay away." yup, that's what she said. at this point, in my dream, i was crying and running away in lightning speed and somehow i passed joanne when i ran. then bam! woke up crying.

imma stop here with the first night first as i am gonna go watch 'Paul' the movie again! it's fucking awesome! hahaha. i'll continue tomorrow or the day after. okay, see you guys soon!

2011-07-07T22:33:00.000+08:00

Everyday i'm at home and i'm just like...

2011-07-07T22:09:00.002+08:00

OM NOM NOM!

i have eating non-stop for days! time for a diet! lol.

A random post.

2011-07-06T14:09:00.004+08:00

hey peepole. this is just gonna be a random post 'cause i really have no idea what to blog about as i lead a very boring life. all day online makes me more dull lor. nothing to do everyday.

anyways, so today MapleSea finally releases the Mechanic Job which kinda excites me as maple is getting old school as i'm level 90 on my main character now and it's getting boring la! omg. so yeah, finally something to keep me busy again but i won't be as addicted as last time 'cause when i get addicted, i will not sleep at night. do you know what i will get if i don't sleep early? PIMPLES! hate them! yup, i just noticed that i slept at 11 last night because i couldn't sleep and woke up with a new guy on my face. LOL THEY COME FAST.

this is a SillyBandz (i don't know what they call the brand and stuff) and i got it from Nabila! it's a blue elephant! HAHA. Abby said it looked like grape. LOL. and anyways, it was nice of her to give one to me! she's actually a new friend that i just met this year and i already love her to bits!

i have just finished reading this book like an hour ago and this is the most complicated story ever! as you can see, the title is called Wuthering Heights. as you can see on the picture below, the family tree is kinda messed up. it's so messed up because of "love". i've read that Catherine Earnshaw was passionately in love with Heathcliff but chose to marry Edgar Linton because of his fortune i guess. Heathcliff got so upset and plotted a revenge to marry Edgar's sister, Isabella, to try and ruin the whole family and also to trick the Linton's fortune into his hands. well, the story goes on and on. it's pretty sad and all 'cause the newest generation is all messed up and stuff and ended up marrying their own cousins! very terrible, kay? but i have to say that this is a very interesting book! you will not stop reading it until you know the ending.

so that's it guys. it's kinda random, huh? i'm really sorry if you feel upset of the way i blog and stuff. i really have nothing to blog about. besides, i'm pretty busy working out things as Yikke's birthday is coming up and i'm planning a suprise party for her! SHH. if you know her, DO NOT SPEAK OF THIS TO HER. and no, i am not gonna invite a large group of people to help her celebrate. just a small group of people to help her enjoy her day! I HOPE IT ALL WORKS OUT.

so yup! that's pretty much it. see you guys soon. BYE!

Gatsby commercials are...

2011-07-03T09:19:00.003+08:00

AWESOME!

especially the song! it's pretty addicting, no? HAHA.

Result.

2011-06-30T20:45:00.002+08:00

hey people. this is gonna be a short post. i'm quite tired now as i am sleeping late these past few night. makes me more tired each day. can't really concentrate much and yawned too much. so i'll just get this over with then go to bed. let's start, shall we?

today is St.Margarets School's report book day. big whoop. okay, sarcasm over there. it is a big deal. it determines whether your parents would kill you today or just let you go 'cause your result was satisfactory. for me, results are nothing. yes, i do like to see good marks on my papers but in overall, i don't really care if i did good or bad 'cause it is my fault that i didn't get a good result and it's also my blessing if i did get good marks.

so yeah, i got my report book today and found out i got 1st place this term which puzzles me a lil' 'cause i was kinda hoping Gabriel, my classmate, would get the honors. i didn't want to be 1st. my parents would expect more from me.. especially the guy who claims to be my blood related "father". i was kinda upset he didn't get first and not because i have feelings for him or anything. it's because his mum wouldn't let him play basketball for the whole third term if he didn't get first and i didn't wanna ruin his fun.. but i guess i did.

a shout-out to Gabriel:

all i wanna say is i'm sorry. i don't have much to say too. you probably can see me now continuously saying sorry with both my hands clasps together. (did i say it right? -.-)

a song to send you guys out. Jay Park - Abandoned. it's not like i'm insulting the HOTTESTs out there but i think (in my opinion guys! don't bash me.) Jay Park is much more better without 2pm. there was some controversy right? that's why Jay Park left or something. well, i guess he made the right decision. 'CAUSE HIS LATEST ALBUM IS DA BOMB PEOPLE.

lolol. i even feel like learning the dance. HAHA. where did you go oh oh oh oh~

okay, i got to sleep now. pretty tired so i'll see you guys next time.

My Darling Darling Please!

2011-06-27T22:51:00.000+08:00

hello, hello, HELLO~

2011-06-26T21:04:00.002+08:00

hello there! i'm random and i like to eat.. a lot of thing? okay, sorry for the random opening. was just in a delightful mood but doesn't have the motivation to blog! i am just that kind of person. as usual, i don't have any perfect explanation for me not being able to blog. if you must know, i have a list to things to do on a daily basis.

what i do on a daily basis:

- watch (insert name of show here) continuously for at least 4-5 hours being disturbed by the internet.

- play maple. so obvious.

- waste my time.

- finding snacks in my kitchen as i am often hungry.

- waste more time.

- listen to tons and tons of songs and lip-sing to them after that.

yup, i am that busy. so you can actually forgive me for having a very, VERY busy life. oops, strike that off. for having a very, VERY lazy life. that's just me. i wonder what would happen if i was a very hardworking, on schedule type of guy. i would actually pass up my homework and be stress about it 'cause everytime you pass up a homework, more homework comes. that's how school fucks you up. first you are all, "YAY. HIGH FIVE I DONE MY HOMEWORK NIGGA" but after that your teacher will be saying something like, "Good job kids. Since you finish all your homeworks, there is another assignment..." WAIT HOLD UP. i just finish one then another one comes?! what is this? a parade?

yeah, i know that last paragraph was pretty random and stuff. i can't help it. it's been random! let me just tell you what i did just now. i had two person come my house and washed my mum's car and one of them was utterly cute. then i had gone on YouTube to watch shimmycocopuffsss but ended up watching deformed babies and a mother having quintuplets. well, yeah. quintuplets. i have no idea how many is 'quintuplets' but that mother's stomach is PRETTY huge.. like an inflatable bouncing green ball! okay i am not implying that her stomach is green and huge, i was just using a self-creating simile.

oh, and i just found out that Wikipedia went from .Com to .Org which is awesome.

OH! I FINISHED DOWNLOADING THAT'S SO RAVEN SEASON 2!!!!

am i crazy or what? anyways, i am gonna end this post. of course, i will cut out some time and paste them on to this blog. see what i did there? anyone? i still have this really REALLY good title that i've been wanting to blog about since last month but never really have the heart to do it. probably i will do it on the next post or never but you'll never know.

that's it. i hope you guys are reading. maybe not. i'm rambling to myself always. ta-ta~

Frustrated

2011-06-23T13:32:00.002+08:00

since last friday, i have been thinking a lot. my past, my future and also the present. my studies, my friends, my crush, my life. my emotions are really wild these days. it's either on "get the hell out of here before i kill you" or "too hyped up!" i have been channeling all my time on maple while listening to some really clam songs to relax my mind and my nerves. going good so far.. only when i'm at home.

yup, i'm really messed up. i kept thinking and thinking about it, how to solve it and to get on with my bloody life but gah, it's useless. thinking about it also makes me mood-less. so if anyone does anything that makes me unhappy, you'll be seeing a really scary look on my face. it's not like i wanted you to see it, it just happens. that's me not taming my temper properly. (does this sentence makes sense to you?)

anyways, today is my second uncle's birthday. the whole family is going to have dinner at Orchid Garden which my mum protests that it's a pretty bad restaurant. well, not bad.. but more like the food there isn't nice so she isn't really looking foward to dinner. she's pretty excited about later though. i'm just gonna play maple for a while while waiting for my mum to come back then off to bandar we go!

a video to send you off. yes, it's DBSK as five. i know that they broke up and stuff, it's pretty sad for Cassies out there. i'm sure some of you Cassies feel the urge to slap me hard in the face to just realized their existence and how awesome their song is now. this is just one of my favourite songs from DBSK as a 5. i just discovered it recently too. i mean i heard of it but never did get the chance to listen to it as i was -ahem- busy listening to w-inds. sorry to all the Cassies out there!

now it's time for me to end this post. till next time!

School Reopens.

2011-06-19T22:46:00.004+08:00

hello from my own room! yes, i'm finally updating and i am once again sorry for not blogging in ages. i have no good reasons for my bad attendance here. i have been maple-ing for practically everyday and i am going insane. why? because it's super hard to level up now as i'm level 80. very hard to do party quest without being disconnected, very hard to find a decent place to train and also, very hard (not to mention expensive) to get suitable equipment for my level. i'm struggling hard! while i'm here whining, Nicholas is probably party quest-ing his butt off.

enough of that, i have sad news. holidays is ending in 2 more hours and 9 minutes as of when i'm typing now. i am quite upset but delighted at the same time that i am able to go back to school to see my fellow mates! oh, how i miss them so but at the same time also, it is quite threatening lor! thinking about how i would fare (is this the right word?) in my examinations is making me shake. i have no idea how to explain this feeling. i feel excited to know my result but another "me" inside of me doesn't want to know it at all. even so, i can't change the fact that teachers ARE GONNA return them anyhow and we are gonna face the horrible consequences.

i am not gonna think about the negative things about school. it only drags down the love i have for the school. okay, happy thinking. let see.. oh! my school is having a new principal though! i heard he's from St. John or so i think i heard. i may be wrong so correct me. i hope he's better than Mr. Mohan 'cause in my opinion, he can't handle how the school goes and never did think about the students feelings and such. so yeah, screw you Mohan.

ahh! another thing about school to look foward to! the school's marching practice for sports day and also the flag-decorating for sports day too! i really look foward to sports day this year! WIN BLUE HOUSE! LOL. i hope RED HOUSE gets second place. we just have to work pretty hard for marching AND be very creative for the flag. these two events might help us bounce back! oh for the record, BOO YELLOW HOUSE.

anyways, i have to end my post here. i'm waking up early -gulp- tomorrow for school. i haven't been waking up early at the right time this holiday. been waking up at 10 in the morning and sleeping at at least midnight. very, very bad for the skin but hey, this is the price i pay for intensively playing maple.

oh and before i go, this song is very nice. i like it but i'm not sure about you though. it's very catchy for me especially when the girl starts singing. her voice is quite appealing to me.

i hope you enjoy this video. it certainly brightens up my day.. for some reason. so till next time, TATA! :P

p/s: if you're wondering why the hell did i change my typing format it's because i find the previous one very untidy and very unappealing lor! so changed it! sooner or later i'm gonna have a tad bit of change in my blog. same design, with the Lee Do Hyeong slide but a lil' difference. it might take some time to finish it up.

ROUGHLY..

2011-06-14T17:12:00.008+08:00

in my twitter and facebook, i have ever said that i wanted a tattoo. SO VERY MUCH!

i also mention that i wanted one behind my ear, stretched down my neck and others on my hand/arm.

here's like a slight preview on what i wanted to do on my hand ('cause i can't just draw on my neck.. LOL)

if you are wondering what it says,

it's 믿음. 믿 (Meed) 음 (Uhm) which means faith in korean.

why? hmm. i can't really say it.

maybe it's because i put myself down a lot.

always thinking negatively about myself.

lack of faith in myself.

that's why i wanted to do it, to keep reminding me to have faith.

btw, this is on my left hand.

i was gonna show what i wanted to do on my right hand one but aah, i can't write with my left hand so yeah.

i'm gonna have 信頼 (Shinrai) on my right hand which means trust and there you have it!

what tattoo i'm gonna get. wow. I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TILL I'M OLD K? :D

oh! oh! and it would be a dream come true if my mother would let me have 3-4 more piercings on my left ear! GAH.

but alas, i'm too young to have a tattoo and more piercings and i would look like a gangsta? i guess lol.

but i oh-so wanna do it! *drooling* *wipes it off*

okay, i'm in dreamland again.

i'm gonna end my post here but i think i'm gonna have another post coming up later.

like i said, no promises!

Techno Kitten Adventure.

2011-06-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

YOU GUYS HAVE TO WATCH THIS VIDEO.

you will either spend 8 minutes of your life laughing your ass off or, laughing your ass off SO WATCH!

The day comes.

2011-06-08T22:03:00.001+08:00

my hero. <3

OPINIONS ON FANS.

2011-06-07T22:42:00.002+08:00

i am now hurt and disappointed and upset.

if you are a VIP or maybe a KPOP freak, you may possibly know about the Daesung incident.

if you didn't know it yet, you can go to the below links are have a read.

wesupportdaesung 1

wesupportdaesung 2

wesupportdaesung 3

as a fan of BIGBANG, as a VIP,

i am deeply hurt. like a thousand stab from the back and drop of water rolled down my cheek that day to see a fellow member of BIGBANG having an extremely hard time.

seeing him unhappy when he should have a huge gigantic smile on his face that makes everyone want to smile with him,

seeing him crying when he should be laughing,

seeing him getting sick when he should be in top conditions and as healthy as a horse,

it really hurts me and i'm sure the other VIPS are having the same feeling as i am.

what i am concerned about is that fans who paid and bought air tickets to fly to the Korean Music Wave in Singapore are not what i call true VIPS?

in my opinion, if you REALLY, TRUELY did pay to see BIGBANG only, why did you need to force the other members of BIGBANG to come and put on a show for you when technically ONE of the members is clearly hurt and unable to perform?

are you sure you bought the tickets to see BIGBANG 'cause you seem much more excited to see their INDIVIDUAL performances.

if i was going to the concert, i would actually want a refund.

even though other great bands are gonna be there, i want a refund.

i don't care if i spend possibly hundreds of dollars on the ticket, the air ticket to fly there and the booked hotel room, I WILL NOT GO TO THE CONCERT.

if you are a true VIP, you should understand why WHY (IF) BIGBANG couldn't come.

BIGBANG is ONE just like how the Earth is one too.

i know they have their individual activities and stuff but the name BIGBANG belongs to the five of them together.

oh and i saw someone mention it on Korean Music Wave's facebook page that four of them should just perform BIGBANG's songs without Daesung.

ARE YOU FUCKING ME? ARE YOU FUCKING ME?

YOU SHOULD BE FUCKING ASHAMED OF YOURSELF FOR CALLING YOURSELF A VIP.

I WOULD SLICE YOU UP AND FEED YOU TO MY DOGS IF I EVER FIND YOU.

*slaps myself* calm down. -.-

but i swear.. if i know you personally, i would fucking slap you.

DAESUNG, we want to see you smile again!

STAY STRONG. VIPS WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU.

p/s: i am now listening to Baby, Don't Cry by Daesung and it upsets me. i wish i could fly there right now and sing the same thing to him.

Daesung, Don't Cry. Just give me your smile~

Flavor of Life

2011-06-05T21:18:00.000+08:00

Again..

2011-05-31T01:23:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry for not blogging again. GAH.

it's just that i'm undergoing exams and also, i've been abusing, raping my laptop since the day i started playing Maple Sea.

hmm.. why do i have to be addicted to a game during each exams? karma, i guess.

anyways.. i actually have a lot of things to blog about but it's just that well, laziness have the best of me and so did Maple Sea.

i sincerely apologize for the lack of updates again.

and it seems that posting apologizing posts are my specialities so.. LOL.

it's 1.30am to be exact and i am exhausted.

from what you must ask? even if you didn't. MAPLE SEA.

-laughs- sorry, addicted! well, maybe 'cause i really wanted to reach Level 70 soon and Nick, Steven & Lok Wen are way up there so i'm literally insane.

BUT no worries! i'll catch up to Lok Wen soon! (confident)

i'll end my post here. so maybe, just maybe, i'll blog soon.

no promises!

see you peepoles.

IT'S FRIDAY..

2011-05-20T12:00:00.003+08:00

..and no way am i gonna start the topic about rebecca black again.

just that i'm gonna post up the picture that i took of Yuichiro Tokuda that day.

i'm gonna say that i like this picture a lot.

even though it's taken with my lousy phone camera compared to your DSRL or whatever.

just when he was holding that note, his pose and (unexpectedly) the light shone on him.

JUST THE RIGHT TIME.

oh since it's friday, i pretty much have nothing to do so i'm just chillin' by my laptop.

i'm gonna study later of course.

i really want to pass this shit.

just me with my headphones.

love it to bits though i actually wanted black but heck, red is awesome too!

i have nothing to update you on now.

i'm sorry for a short post as well, my life is not as exciting so i won't have that much to say about. ;)

i'll end this post with these two pictures that Junex drew!

GENIE!

2011-05-18T14:58:00.004+08:00

I JUST GOTTA SHOW YOU ALL THIS.

omg, they can look good in anything! they look kinda stunning in girl's clothes anyway...

Taemin and Key looks like a girl here too!

heheheheheh!

RALYZZ DIG

2011-05-17T22:12:00.004+08:00

i have been crazy over this one guy and imma share it with ya'll.

his name is Yuichiro Tokuda (徳田雄一郎) and I'M SO IN LOVE WITH HIM!

he's a saxophonist so most of his songs are jazz.

i know i've said i HATE jazz, hate them to the guts but he, he changed everything.

you all have to give this guy a chance to let them into your life.

i have, and i will not regret it.

yes, jazz is mainly instrumental and rarely have vocals in them unless you're Maria Muldaur.

and of course, sometimes instrumental stuffs gets boring after you have listened to it for a long time like eg. classical music. 'cause i did get bored.

but he makes me think that the notes he played have lyrics in them, special meanings.

i was so touched when i get to listened to them at the Borneo Jazz Concert.

and the way he handle that saxophone.. GAHH! <3

-fangirl-ing mode-

okay anyways, he is really amazing.

at the concert, he dedicated a song to all Bruneians called "Brunei" and TOUCHING MUCH?

he said that seven years ago, his friend suddenly spoke the name Brunei but he didn't know what it was, either a country or something else.

he then made a song about it as he finds the word "Brunei" makes him calm and soothing.

so even though he didn't knew what Brunei was, i am glad he made that song.

even though he is amazingly talented on the saxophone, HE CAN SING TOO!

he sang during the concert for Japan and i can certainly see that some of the audience shed a tear. well, so did i but that's not the point.

he made most of us at the concert touched by his playing.

now for some pictures and videos!

i have one more picture of him at the concert but i was too lazy to upload. :P

"Brunei"

they only uploaded half of the song! it's a shame though.

"Nothing There"

this is one of my favourite songs!

"Home"

this is my favourite song of all.

like i said previously, it's very touching and i feel like there's some special meanings inside them.

it's like he's singing with his saxophone.

too bad you can only hear half of the song 'cause listening it whole would be much better.

and last but not least, HE SINGS! omg, melting.

Hamabe no Uta

i would like to have his name tattoo on my arm though.

memorable! my first favourite jazz band!

i hope in the future, i'll get to listen to their upcoming activities.

oh, by the way.

i took a picture with the drumer that day.

OH SHIT, LUCKY ME.

GAKU HASEGAWA!

i have to stop here now as my exam is coming up and well, it's kinda late.

i have hope to ace everything or least try to.

but hey, it's kinda good to get my confidence built up before the exams.

well, see ya peeps later and i will blog..

WHEN I WANT TOO! ;)

REDHOUSE.. :S

2011-05-04T21:46:00.004+08:00

redhouse. yes.

i'm in red house and you know what? i LOVE red house!

we're awesome even though we're losing by tons of points.

and i really love people in red house as they are very supportive of each other and we always makes jokes and stuff but there's one thing or maybe a lot of things that bother me.

TEAMWORK.

some of you might know that we are having our basketball competition these few days.

and REDHOUSE went against BLUEHOUSE yesterday.

normally i would just encourage my team mates to just have fun and effort is all that counts.

but this time, i'm not gonna say anything like that anymore.

my basketball team, is a disaster.

terrible, at it's worst.

from what i observe, they don't run much. maybe they did but not as fast to catch up with people.

one of the players, let's name her K, she doesn't pass the ball.

god dammit, SHE DOESN'T PASS THE FRIGGIN' BALL!

as you can see from above, the red dot represents redhouse members, blue indicates blue house and the one with the orange spot is the person holding the ball.

NOW, imagine that you are in a situation like this being blocked by opponents.

of course, the most logical thing to do is to pass the ball to the red house IN FRONT OF HER.

i emphasized her with the bright blue colour in case some of you can't see it.

SHE WAS THERE but nooooo, she wouldn't pass it to her and something happened after that then we didn't have the chance to get a point.

my memory is a little fuzzy lately due to a lot of things so excuse me.

so overall we lost the game.

with me being the vice captain and all, i didn't really wanna pressurize my team mates as well, we're a team and we do our best to win.

but sometimes, i just wanna shout at them or maybe scream at them.

winning may be unnecessary but you also need to put in AT LEAST some effort in them!

i couldn't blame the redhouse boys that they lost 'cause they did try their best.

their efforts are enough and i'm proud of them.

but girls, give it some more.

i wanna give a shout-out to Shwada 'cause she's doing her best to lead us all with patience.

you are an awesome captain! even if we didn't win!

'CAUSE WE LOSE, LIKE A BOSS.

and i just wanna have fun with her on Sports Day.

I hate this LOVE SONG.

2011-05-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THIS PERFORMANCE SO SO MUCH!

ooooogly!

2011-04-20T16:52:00.001+08:00

watch me as i fake a smile.

oooooooooooogly!

SPORTS CRAZEE!

2011-04-19T21:57:00.002+08:00

so you all know, our school's sports day is coming up or maybe you don't.
we're all very excited about it as some of us maybe have practice so hard(!) just for the sports day.
i envy their spirit and enthusiasm!

so lately, i have been practicing a lot and trust me, it really is tiring if you have to practice almost everyday.
on the plus side is that i get to train my stamina, lose weight, get physical!
on the contrary, i'm getting pretty tired each day. pressured. keeping my cool to the extend which i couldn't handle. i'm also sleeping late lately so you can pretty much imagine how much energy i have a day.
but it was all worth it.

now i'm crazy about sports! CWAZYYYYY!
i feel like playing sports everyday now, almost like i'm addicted to it!
apart from the after effects of sports, it is fun playing with the gang!
and you know who you are Justin, Abby, Eme, Farr, Kevin and others! ;)
we have fun our way! so now almost every Friday, we're going to BSRC for badminton in the morning which is a pretty good activity for stressed out kids.
so we should do this more often!

what i'm thinking about is that we have a basketball court and a volleyball court at school.
also, there's a table for playing table tennis in the hall and there is no use for them once sports day is over.
i'm just kinda curious on how it's such a waste to not use those facilities on a regular basis.
why can't school arrange a time or something for us students to have fun in school?
or even help us improve our skills in different sports so the competition would be thou much easier the next year so we wouldn't need to fuss about the rules and etc everytime!
sigh, why is Mr.Mohan so.. undescribable?

so yeah, i'm pretty much zonked out now.
i better go to sleep!
also, i'm really sorry that i haven't been blogging for weeks(?). it's been hectic and still, i'm really sorry.

STUPID LIARS

2011-04-03T18:43:00.002+08:00

I CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS! <3

Tired.

2011-03-27T01:35:00.002+08:00

to tell the truth people.
i'm tired. tired of everything.
tired of love.

i. i have always love him.
i guess you could say that, yeah.
my friends called it puppy love or just a crush, ya know?
or just telling me i'm wasting my time on "this one guy."
i never believed them. never did.
i never stopped losing hope. i looked up to the clouds and just keep calm.
this one phrase that kept me going, "everything's gonna be okay."
truth is, it's not okay. it never is.

i tried making conversations with him but i'm not that good at socializing so i kept quiet.
not even a single word can pass out my mouth.
that's disappointing but then i thought, why should i strain myself to talk to him?
why should i even notice his existence when he doesn't notice mine.
that is the question, why.

even if i did make conversations, i always say the wrong thing.
always. it either makes you mad or it makes you upset.
and when i did, i get the silent treatment which probably lasts for a lifetime.
it serves me right. it does.

he's the one out there having his own love.
taking care of the girl he's suppose to be taking care of.
possibly dedicated his life to her.
while i, still here, waiting for him to ring the bell to my doorstep.

and for once, i'm starting to believe my friends.
i've seen the light. i've seen everything.
i've seen things that i don't want to see and it aches my heart.
i don't want that feeling anymore.
i don't even want to feel "love" anymore.
'cause the more i feel "love", the more it hurts.
it can't be mend.

and you might think i have friends who i prattle my problems to everytime huh?
i don't. this is why i'm blogging right now.
to blog down all my pains.
or maybe dissatisfaction in my life.
but no more, no more you to deal with now. :)
I'M LETTING YOU GO. AND I PROMISE, I WILL.

Alone in the day.

2011-03-23T12:06:00.002+08:00

yes! i am aloneee!
ALONE!
for the morning only.
so that means i had to make my own breakfast and lunch.
and complete the duties that my mum gave me at 5-6 in the morning.
and free time yeahh!

this is what i have for lunch!

fried egg with cheese and strawberry yoghurt! :3

so yeah, watching the BigBang Theory and this.. It's practically heaven.
hehehe! off i go now. short update.
i'm also having cramps so that kinda spoils everything.

REBECCA BLACK.

2011-03-19T00:13:00.002+08:00

the only thing i can say now is that,
this bitch Rebecca Black totally suck.
well, YEAH!
if you haven't heard of her, you should 'cause it'll really laugh ur ass off.
here's the official MV of her song Friday.
you have to watch it because it gonna be the link to all the funny shit i'm posting after this.

think about it.
her face, her thick make up, her lyrics, her monotone sounds, her age, her so called "bus".
IT'S ALL SO WRONG.
i mean what the fuck is wrong when the lyrics goes,
"Yesterday was Thursday.
Today is Friday.
Tomorrow is Saturday
and Sunday comes afterwards"
are you fucking me? ARE YOU FUCKING ME?
no, i didn't know that yesterday was Thursday 'cause well, i'm practically uneducated and stuff and TOMORROW IS SATUDAY? OH MY GOSH.
I DIDN'T KNOW THAT.

i don't even need to tell you about what's so ridiculous about that song and the whole mv.
you have these people right here,

LUANLEGACY

KINGSLEY

i have much better things than to bash about Rebecca Black.
but i better to not bash about her too much as well she's still a kid and too much criticism can actually kill this kid.
besides, this is just another short post as i'm blogging at 1am in the morning.
let the videos entertain you. it surely did light up my day.

see ya peeps.
btw, i'm really for the short posts these days.
i have no motivation to blog! ):

NV like this!

2011-03-16T15:20:00.000+08:00

The wonderful almost ending

2011-03-12T14:40:00.003+08:00

i.am.going.to.post.about.the.JIS.showcase.next.time.
MAYBE

so this isn't going to be about the JIS showcase.
i'm sorry but well, there are some problems if i DO make a post about it.
1. I HAVE NO PHOTOS as i think you have better yet to see it with your own eyes rather than some photos. and that is why, i did not have photos. sorry.
2. i also do not have videos. why? same reason. or rather, i did not have a proper camera to record it all. all i have was my LG.

so sorry to ya'll.
anyways, all of you know that the exam is almost OVER!
cannot friggin' wait for it to be over and HERE COMES HOLIDAY!
24/7 of Pangya, show watching etc.

okay this is getting random as i have nothing to blog about.
didja see my new blog skin?
changed it to Lee Do Hyeong since i'm kinda addicted to him now.
well, not addicted but uh, starting to bias him more than Lee Tae Gyun that is.

anyways see ya peepos.

PRAY FOR JAPAN!

2011-03-11T21:52:00.002+08:00

you all heard the news didn't you?
i can't help but to just blog this out as i feel helpless to the world.
a person cannot revive the dead OR help other people who are really far from you.
therefore, i had to type this down.

this news we're talking about involves Japan.
i'm sure most of our parents or maybe grandparents MIGHT be happy about this.
'cause it's punishment to them for what they did in the past.
hello! THAT WAS THE FREAKING PAST.
and today is TODAY!

okay you all.
you all don't care about what's happening to the world as to WE LIVE IN THE SAFEST PART OF THE FUCKING WORLD.
but know this, someday. just someday, Brunei is gonna have some casualties too.
okay, i'm not gonna curse about Brunei 'cause i don't want any deaths AT ALL.

back to the topic.
some of you feel so happy about it because,
Japanese totally killed a lot of people in the past during 1452(?). i'm not sure
they raped girls/women/ladies then after that shot them
they are freaking Japanese.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?
we are ONE not freaking 17!
even though the world is split into different countries with different races but we have one world.

so don't be lazy, don't be selfish.
pray for them, pray for the world.
pray that everything is gonna be alright.
pray that the homeless there will have a home soon.
pray that the kids who survived there is gonna have a big field to play soon.
pray that the senior citizens who survived can live in peace.
pray that people there is gonna be warm at night when they have nothing.

PRAY.

Pray for Japan

2011-03-11T16:51:00.000+08:00

TOKYO – A magnitude 8.9 earthquake slammed Japan's eastern coast Friday, unleashing a 13-foot (4-meter) tsunami that swept boats, cars, buildings and tons of debris miles inland. Fires triggered by the quake burned out of control up and down the coast, including one at an oil refinery.

At least one person was killed and there were reports of several injuries in Tokyo, hundreds of miles (kilometers) away, where buildings shook violently through the main quake and the wave of massive aftershocks that followed. A tsunami warning was issued for dozens of Pacific countries, as far away as Chile.

Japan's meteorological agency said that within two hours, large tsunamis washed ashore into dozens of cities along a 1,300-mile (2,100-kilometer) stretch of the country's eastern shore — from the northern island of Hokkaido to central Wakayama prefecture.

Prime Minister Naoto Kan said the quake caused "major damage in broad areas" but nuclear power plants in the area were not affected. The government prepared to send troops to the quake-hit areas.

"This is a rare major quake, and damages could quickly rise by the minute," said Junichi Sawada, an official with Japan's Fire and Disaster Management Agency.

TV footage showed waves of muddy waters sweeping over farmland near the city of Sendai, carrying buildings, some on fire, inland as cars attempted to drive away. Sendai airport, north of Tokyo, was inundated with cars, trucks, buses and thick mud deposited over its runways. Fires spread through a section of the city, public broadcaster NHK reported.

The tsunami also roared over embankments in Sendai city, washing cars, houses and farm equipment inland before reversing directions and carrying them out to sea. Flames shot from some of the houses, probably because of burst gas pipes.

Elsewhere, large fishing boats lay upturned on land, some distance from the sea.

Officials were trying to assess damage, injuries and deaths but had no immediate details. Police said at least one person was killed in a house collapse in Ibaraki prefecture, just northeast of Tokyo.
Click image to see photos of quake, tsunami damage

REUTERS/Kim Kyung-Hoon

A large fire erupted at the Cosmo oil refinery in Ichihara city in Chiba prefecture near Tokyo and was burning out of control with 100-foot (30 meter) -high flames whipping into the sky.

NHK showed footage of a large ship being swept away by the tsunami and ramming directly into a breakwater in Kesennuma city in Miyagi prefecture.

In various locations along the coast, footage showed massive damage from the tsunami, with cars, boats and even buildings being carried along by waters. Partially submerged vehicles were seen bobbing in the water.

The U.S. Geological Survey said the quake was a magnitude 8.9, while Japan's meteorological agency measured it at 8.4. It struck at 2:46 p.m. and was followed by 12 powerful aftershocks, seven of them at least 6.3, the size of the quake that struck New Zealand recently.

A tsunami warning was extended to a number of Pacific, Southeast Asian and Latin American nations, including Japan, Russia, Indonesia, New Zealand and Chile. In the Philippines, authorities said they expect a 3-foot (1-meter) high tsunami.

The quake struck at a depth of six miles (10 kilometers), about 80 miles (125 kilometers) off the eastern coast, the agency said. The area is 240 miles (380 kilometers) northeast of Tokyo.

In downtown Tokyo, large buildings shook violently and workers poured into the street for safety. TV footage showed a large building on fire and bellowing smoke in the Odaiba district of Tokyo.

Several nuclear plants along the coast were partially shut down, but there were no reports of any radioactive leakage.

In central Tokyo, trains were stopped and passengers walked along the tracks to platforms. NHK said more than 4 million buildings were without power in Tokyo and its suburbs.
The ceiling in Kudan Kaikan, a large hall in Tokyo, collapsed, injuring an unknown number of people, NHK said.
Osamu Akiya, 46, was working in Tokyo at his office in a trading company when the quake hit.
It sent bookshelves and computers crashing to the floor, and cracks appeared in the walls.
"I've been through many earthquakes, but I've never felt anything like this," he said. "I don't know if we'll be able to get home tonight."
Footage on NHK from their Sendai office showed employees stumbling around and books and papers crashing from desks. It also showed a glass shelter at a bus stop in Tokyo completely smashed by the quake and a weeping woman nearby being comforted by another woman.
Several quakes had hit the same region in recent days, including a 7.3 magnitude one on Wednesday.
Thirty minutes after the main quake, tall buildings were still swaying in Tokyo and mobile phone networks were not working. Japan's Coast Guard has set up a task force and officials are standing by for emergency contingencies, Coast Guard official Yosuke Oi said.
"I'm afraid we'll soon find out about damages, since the quake was so strong," he said.
In Tokyo, hundreds of people were evacuated from Shinjuku train station, the world's busiest, to a nearby park. Trains were halted.
Tokyo's main airport was closed. A large section of the ceiling at the 1-year-old airport at Ibaraki, about 50 miles (80 kilometers) northeast of Tokyo, fell to the floor with a powerful crash.
Dozens of fires were reported in northern prefectures of Fukushima, Sendai, Iwate and Ibaraki. Collapsed homes and landslides were also reported in Miyagi.
Japan's worst previous quake was in 1923 in Canto, which killed 143,000 people, according to USGS. An earthquake in Kobe city in 1996 killed 5,502 people.

source: yahoo

bloodiest day of my life.

2011-03-10T20:35:00.002+08:00

the title is weird, no?
but this is what i wanted to talk about.
today, is the bloodiest day of my life. why?
this morning in school, i had a nose bleed.
it's not one of those major ones but tiny minor ones instead this one lasts longer than usual.
my exam just started actually, then my nose just bleeds.
so, i wasted about 20 minutes of my time in the toilet checking if it stopped.

not only that, i officially have my period in school.
i don't even know i had it!
so when i got home, red stains formed in my underpants.
it was rather lucky that my skirt didn't get any stains.
but that wasn't the point.
the point is, i've seen too much blood today and i'm afraid of blood. a bit. childhood horrors.
and since i lost TOO MUCH blood, i feel kinda weak now and moves really slow.
just hope i can replenish my energy by tomorrow as i have homework that i need to do.

also, we all know that it's exam time.
i'm doing quite well. i guess.
well, i felt a bit happy about my performance in the hall which did scare me a little.
I NEVER HAVE BEEN SO ATTENTIVE.
okay, not attentive but i never really work out the questions so seriously.
i just hope i do well in my exams!

and last note: you still love her, don't you?
i feel eet! don't lie to me. d:
i saw yet another one of your "coincidence".
more like evidence to me.

SEE YA PEEPS.
sorry for the abrupt end.

MARCH? ohmaigod.

2011-03-03T20:50:00.002+08:00

it's March already and everyone is hoping for a GOOD month.
like everybody else, i'm also wishing for one as i wanted 2011 to be the best year ever!
but things are not really looking so good.

starting March, i have been on killing mode.
you can see this really strange aura coming from me.
no reason at all, but i just have it.
but of course, i did try my best to conceive my "anger".

and just now, i drank some bad milk.
that's right. BAD MILK!
how can you possibly get bad milk? oh yeah, you can.
it's just so strange to suddenly drink it and do not know what will happen next.
now i'm just a bit worried that i might even go to the toilet for the whole night.
maybe even sleep there, for all i'm worried about.

i feel like my post doesn't make sense.
maybe i'm just typing too fast.
quick post here.
IF YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TYPING ABOUT.
congratulations. you won a NOTHING!
yup, that's about it.

MARCH, PLEASE BE GOOD!

TONIGHT!

2011-03-01T22:07:00.000+08:00

thank you, all of you.

2011-02-28T22:21:00.004+08:00

as you all know, it's not really my birthday today.
but almost all of you sent me messages, made posts, greeted me on this last day of February.
words really cannot express how happy i am now.
even though i'm typing this so calmly but in the inside, i'm really thankful to you all.

FACEBOOK PEEPS:
thank you to all you people who greeted me in facebook!
some of you i may know, some of you i may not know.
but you guys still greeted!
i know everyone loves me! xx
HAHAHA! perasaan much?

firstly, i wanted to thank Abby and Jia Yi for celebrating a quiet birthday with me!
i don't really like a crowd that much now as, well, i'm turning less of a party animal.
i'm not sure about what i just said but THANK YOU BOTH!

thanks to jia yi again, for even coming to my house
giving me presents on the way home from Bandar!
also, Aiswarya! she also bought me a gift!
i thank you both from the bottom of my heart!

remember hidden stuff?

another two person who i must greet personally here is Claud Sis and Lip Yi!
these two really light up my day! with just a few words in a tiny post!
in such a tiny post, i'm sure there's a lot of un-seen things inside them and you know.

oooh, purple! my favourite colour! well, kinda.

hahaha, claud sis, even though they called me nerdy and weird, I'M STILL AWESOME MY OWN WAY!

thank you two so much! i will return those 'posts' on you guys birthdays, aite?

yeah, even though i ain't spending it in some expensive restaurant.
even though i didn't spend it with a crowd of people.
even though i have school and tuition today.
i'm having the best day of my life doing what i want!
reblogging in tumblr all day, online, reblogging, spend a heck of time in tuition and Bonamana on replay!
HECK YEAH WAY TO SPEND BIRTHDAYS!

one last time, aight?
THANK YOU FOR TODAY!

2011-02-28T16:14:00.000+08:00

I WILL BLOG TONIGHT!

anger management.

2011-02-27T00:02:00.002+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates.
like i always said, i have a very good reason.
and this time, it ain't gonna be one of those "i'm lazy" excuses.
now, i introduce to you my new excuse!
"I'M BUSY WITH TUMBLR"
yes, yes i am.
do you know how much fun can reblogging be? well, maybe you don't.
btw, if you haven't follow me yet follow me here.

today, i would like to talk about our anger and temper.
not everyone has this kind of problem i guess.
some people can smile like nothing wrong even if they are being played and used pr even get raped!
okay, i'm kidding about the rape part but you know what i mean, right?
i really, really, REALLY envy those people.
they smile throughout and not even a slightest hatred can be seen on their faces.

like this morning, i had no idea what happened but when my friend, let's name her N, she said this one thing that kinda hurt me.
i didn't know if she was kidding or she meant it but she said so herself that she was joking.
so okay, i'll let that slide.
then she KINDA (i'm not sure) judged me on how i should express my problems more and stuff.
yeah, i know i have that problem.
so i kinda flamed. for no good reason. just FLAMED.

maybe it's because i've been too emotional.
NO, it's not because i have PMS.
girls have other reasons to be emotional, kay?

so to change this UNCHANGEABLE habit of mine,
i will now pronounce to chill my butts off when i'm being angry and stuff.
i mean, it's just too scary to see me be angry.
i may or will go on a killing spree during that hell of time.
btw, i also have been hitting people quite lately these day which is not really a good thing.
it's either i'm turning tomboy-ish again or it's just emotional momenttt!
ARGH!

okay, normal life updates.
well, i'm starting to do my homeworks! (YAY!)
for some of you out there, ya'll know i never do my homeworks right?
but now, JANG! i'm putting some efforts into it to make my "hiding the fact that i didn't do my homework reaction" at ease or rather, just get it done with!

also, we're starting our exams on the 8th of March which darkens the day.
the promise to my mum? oh yeah, time to PROVE it to her!
but there's one problem, we have a school trip on the 12th.. which is during our exam..
which is making me a bit worried!
i do hope there is NO exams on that particular day!

maybe ya'll notice it now that i've put autoplay music on my blog again! yay!
well, if ya'll don't like it then sorry.
you can leave comments on my tagbox saying that you don't like it and i will take action.
fyi, the song is from w-inds! yes, my favourite band!
it's from their 2nd latest album named "Another World".
if you had listened to it (i doubt you will), the Intercode and New World had been put together into one song.
but i did a really job at it as i'm not a professional and i'm satisfied enough.

wow, i guess i blogged too much today. or i'm just exaggerating.
anyways, it's 1am in the morn and i'm starting to feel tired as i went to Bandar just now.
of course, i'm looking foward to tomorrow.
things are gonna happen. ;)
well, see ya!

BIGBANG!

2011-02-23T21:46:00.002+08:00

are you ready, for BIGBANG?

beatsbydre.

2011-02-20T17:01:00.003+08:00

all i'm gonna show are photos.
nothing else.
even though i really want to type something but apparently, i have nothing.

HOT RED BEATS!

♥

and that's me, vaining with it.

i'm not trying to show off but you know the feeling when you got something you wanted all your life?
yeah, that's what i'm feeling now.
oh 2011, you duh awesome-est!
wait no, BROTHER YOUR THE AWESOME-EST! OKAY!

just today, my brother said this and it touched me so much.
even if he's scary, bad tempered sometimes but he's nice on the inside.
he said, "when i was small, i also have things that i want so much but couldn't 'cause of, you know. so i kinda understand your feeling and that's why i brought you to buy it."
see how he is? that's why i love him.

thanks again.
i'm actually blasting my ears with my beats with GD's HeartBreaker album.
teehee. IT FEELS AWESOME.
-ends-

the gift.

2011-02-16T14:24:00.002+08:00

sorry for not blogging in a while.
it's just that time was not with me. or maybe i'm not with the time.
there's so much things that i wanted to post up but you know me.
i'm a lazy ass like always.

well, i went to bandar with my brother today.
we went for movies as it's gonna a long time for us to meet after he goes back to Melbourne.
yeah, it's gonna be sad and all but i'm sure i can handle it now as i'm slowly growing up.
and also, i would like to thank my brother for bringing me to the mall!
if he didn't, i wouldn't have gotten my beats!
OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH!

pictures will be posted up MAYBE tomorrow.
as it's midnight now and i'm kinda lazy.

4 more days to the amazingggggg BIGBANG's COMEBACK!

oh shezz. i'm getting all excited over this! <3
and also, i think i'm a new fan of Lee Do Hyeong.
i think i mentioned him a while back when i was kinda obsessed with ulzzang.
i still am though.
see how cute and flawless is he?
holy shezz. i wish i had skin like him.

well, i guess thats it for now.
it's almost 1am.
so i'm gonna get some beauty rest.
see ya'll soon.

2011-02-11T21:26:00.004+08:00

shoutout to my friend, Lip Yi!
it's his birthday todayyy!
i'm not sure what time it is there in Perth but i do know that it's not over yet!
sorry for the late greeting.
oh yeah, the guy in the red shirt.
i'm sorry i exposed your picture.
but well aa.
i gotta have this in my blog. LOL.

anyways, had fun in tuition just now.
and i finally saw him.
i'm not gonna mention how the party went and such as i have no mood or intentions to say it.

saw him, said hi, that's all.
yeah. mission accomplish. right.
but i was kinda happy to see his smiling face.
and of course, i have no intentions to hook him up or anything.
nor do i want to get close to him.
'cause when i do, i tend to break them up.
and yeah, he is taken.

so bitchslap me if you think i'm not suppose to like a guy when he's taken.
bitchslap me too if you think i like him for too long.

whatever it is, just slap the hell out of me.
i deserve it.

okay, i need Suzuya.
wait for me, Starry Sky.

thursday night.

2011-02-10T21:59:00.006+08:00

just a small update.
on what i do.
on thursday night.

oh yeahhh! Starry Sky!
first and best Otome game ever.

the three of them!
Suzuya, Kanata, Yoh

SUZUYAAAAAAAAA!♥
teehee!♥

see ya'll soon!

please.

2011-02-07T23:06:00.003+08:00

as much as you all know, my birthday's coming up.
whoopee, right?
but the thing is, i don't want any birthday nor do i want any celebrations.

no presents, no greetings.
it's not like it IS my birthday.
ya'll just wanted to celebrate it on the 28th but i don't.

i just want a quiet day, no reminder of it AT ALL.
it's not like i hate my birthday, i don't.
i just don't like how people fuss about birthdays and what presents to give and .. everything.
please, nothing.
just a normal day.

it's time.

2011-02-03T18:31:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

baby good night.

2011-02-01T21:46:00.003+08:00

so now i'm back, to rant about music.
haven't you heard GTOP released a new MV today?
tsk. tsk. you should know.

GD&TOP - BABY GOOD NIGHT

hmm. let me tell you what albums/singles i'm listening to now.
it might be a handful at first but you'll just fall in love with everything you listen to.
if you really like it, that is.
what albums/singles am i currently listening?
well,
1) w-inds - Be As One
2) V.I - VVIP
3) GTOP - GD&TOP Vol. 1
4) w-inds - Another World
5) DBSK - Best Selection 2010

argh! so many songs in so little time.
it makes me sad to have been prevented from listening to these songs as my time is limited and also, my brother does not take a liking to KPOP.
it annoys me when he makes fun of the style of the songs so i tend not to listen with him around.

SO, big question.
what do i think of 'em?
i'll start with the first ones on the list, aight?

first off, it's not a bad album.
i like the calmness to it, as always, it pleases me.
it makes me a happy person and you know the world gets better when you're happy.
so i was listening to this album, throughly and find it soothing.
Keita's voice is defitnetly to die for.
anyways, i was satisfied but then when i look for their MV,
i was disappointed. why?
because the whole group isn't working together anymore.
in the olden days, Keita would be singing vocals while Ryohei and Ryuichi would rap their hearts out.
now, it's all Keita. as if the company is trying to promote only him but not the other two.

secondly, their appearances.
Keita used to be this cute boyish kind of guy and now, he have muscles?
seriously? MUSCLES ON THAT FACE? OH, PLEASE.
and Ryohei became unexpectedly attractive to me? OH NO.
for some reasons, Ryuichi's expression tells me that he's tired of this whole thing.
or maybe i'm just thinking too much.
i DO NOT like the looks of w-inds now.

yeah, i can't judge them by looks, right?
that might sound like i'm only supporting them by their looks.
(or maybe that's what i did when i was a kid..?)
anyways, their single was good. satisfactory.
wanna listen? i doubt you will, okay?
it's not KPOP so ya'll not listen to it, right?
don't deny it.

w-inds - Let's Get It On

w-inds - Be As One

okay, now i have nothing to rant.
maybe i'll go on to the second one in the next post.
or maybe the one after that.
anyways, hope ya'll see the light of different music and also, don't sleep late.
it's bad for health.
but i've been sleeping late for the past 3 weeks..
and that made me really weak..
anyways~ i'll update soon, of course.
if i didn't, that means my pants have been bitten by a tortoise and my mobile is burning.
see ya'll soon.

update: w-inds's Be As One video has been claimed copyright.
urgh. he must be a dick. LOL.
here's another video, which isn't the MV but the fanmade one.

i'm a bad fan.

2011-01-21T22:00:00.005+08:00

it's been a week(?) that i haven't update.
and you all knew that i was spazzing about Seung Ri's new album, right?
and i didn't even update on the day it releases.
I'M SUCH A BAD FAN!

i'm so ashamed to be a Seung Ri fan! ): (you know when i put a emoticon, it means baddddd!)
even though i'm a bit late,
here's the mvs.

V.V.I.P

어쩌라고 (WHAT CAN I DO)

like i said, i'm so sorry for not updating in DAYS.
i wanted to but there's a lot of reasons for it.
1) i was lazy to blog.
2) i was incredibly, suprisingly busy.
3) i have the lack of time.
4) internet connection sucks here.
well, i admit that i was kinda lazy to blog but you have to understand that i was also busy with my current schedule and ect.ect.

i will blog more about the songs in the next post but now, i want to talk about a friend.
he just left today. to a far but near country.
even though we're not as close, i still miss him.
to me, he's like one of most important person in my life throughout.
and it's not because i'm in love with him! i don't!
but he is important.

today, i kept thinking about him and our childhood memories.
i can't help to shed a tear of the thought of him moving away.
it's like i lost a friend.
it's not gonna be the same on our usual hangouts.
okay, i'm getting emotional on this.

whatever happens, we'll still be friends. right?
don't forget about us! ever!
and i'm so sorry for not doing anything on the last few days of your time here.
i know i'm a bad friend. forgive me?

wish you all the best there, Lip Yi. :)
come back once in a while okay?

the time has come.

2011-01-19T21:49:00.002+08:00

TOMORROW!♥

final 2.

2011-01-18T21:22:00.001+08:00

2 MORE DAYS!

final 3.

2011-01-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

3 MORE DAYS!